Bella Swan Cullen(COMPLETED)

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

~Bella POV~ 

 Alice was really fun to talk to. I also talked to Esme, Carlisle, Emmett, Rosalie, and everyone else except Jasper and Edward. I couldn't remember anything when I talked to everyone. I hope I can get my memory back soon. I don't like being in the dark for long. I was now in one of their guest rooms. I looked at my arms and saw all these scars. I had a feeling that I want to cover them up. I walked over towards the closet and picked out jeans and a long sleeved shirt from aeropostale; whatever that is. I wanted to take a shower so I did just that. After I was done I went downstairs. Before I was halfway down I heard voices. I stopped and listened. 

"What do you expect me to do change her? She doesn't even know what we are let alone her own name." A voice that sounded like Edward said.

 "Has she noticed anything familiar, Edward?" I think, Carlisle said.

 "I don't think so. What if... what if she doesn't get her memory back at all?" Edward said.

 "Something has to trigger a memory. Marcus is still mourning over his own mate's loss. Something triggered a memory of her death." Carlisle said.

 "Do you know what triggered it?" Edward said.

 "No. It could have been one of Didyme's possessions." Carlisle said."What if we show her something that she owned or that she did?" Edward seemed excited about the answer."It might work. Why don't you let Esme take her down to her father's house and have her take a look around? Would you mind doing that Esme?" Carlisle said.

 "I wouldn't mind at all." A motherly voice, Esme, said.

 "Just make sure Charlie isn't around." Carlisle warned. Suddenly a face flashed in front of my eyes. It was the face of a man, maybe in his 40's, with muddy brown hair and a mustache the same color. I leaned against the wall and I must have fell asleep because I was back in the guest bedroom on the bed with the covers pulled up to my chest. I sat up but got dizzy so I layed back down. When I was sure I wouldn't get dizzy again I got up to stand. When I got standing my legs felt weak so I grabbed hold of the pole at the end of the bed. I walked a little ways and I got walking again. I was so close to the door but I fell and my head hit the wall next to the door. My head throbbed. I felt the back of my head with my hand. When I pulled it back I saw blood. I heard someone walking towards me so I looked up. James. James was walking towards me. I tried to move away but he came too fast.

 "Bella. Bella. Bella!" It sounded like Esme. I closed my eyes and opened them again. Esme was in front of me, shaking me. Behind her was Carlisle, Rosalie, Edward, and Alice. I looked down at my hand but there wasn't any blood. I must have looked confused because she asked,"What's wrong, Bella?" Bella? Is that my name?

 "Is that my name?" I asked. She nodded and asked her previous question."It was nothing. Really." I assured them. They didn't look convinced but let it go.

 "Do you want to go for a drive?" She asked me. I nodded. I had to make sense of what just happened and maybe going to my father's house will help.

 --Time Skip-- 

 Alice and Rosalie came along too. We passed a sign that said 'Welcome To Forks'. Visions came along with that. I was riding in a police crusier with the man from my first vision, I was riding in a black mercedes with Alice and Jasper, and the last one was me as a baby going out of Forks. I was trying to figure out what they meant when we pulled up at a house. I guess this was my father's house. Many memorys came at once and it knocked me down. Me fighting with my father, an orange rusty truck with a man in a wheelchair and a tall boy, me getting into a silver volvo with Edward.

 "Are you okay?" I nodded but didn't know who asked. I got back up and walked towards the house. A memory of a key under the mat came to me. I looked down and lifted up the mat; the key was there. I opened the door and went in. Memories came again. Me and the man from the visions were fighting, the same man and a woman fighting. At the end of both of these visions the woman and I said the same thing and then left, slamming the door. Tears prickled in my eyes at that perticular memory. I saw sadness in the man's eyes when I left. The kitchen brought memories of breakfests, lunches, and dinners. In the living room I saw me on the couch, staring at nothing. Others were of sport games. I walked up the stairs and towards the left. I opened the first door I wished I hadn't. The man from my vision's was lying on the bed with blood all over him. Charlie. This was my father. I walked towards him and grabbed his hand. It was ice cold. My legs became weak so I fell. Tears were falling down my face. I heard gasps at the doorway but I ignored them. Someone tried to pull me away but I fought against it. They were too strong so I gave up. I was hulled out of the room and into the hallway. I got up and, suprisingly, walked to the next door. I opened it and a memory hit me; hard.

 --Flashback--

 I was sitting on the toliet's lid in only my underwear and my top. A razor blade in my hand.

 "Why did you leave me?" I brought it to my leg and made a slash."Was I not good enough for you?" Another slash."Was I just a distraction?" Another slash."I wasn't everything that you wanted?" One more slash. After that I kept hacking at my skin. The blood poured down my leg and onto the floor. Release.

 --End OF Flashback--

 I was breathing heavily when I returned to the present.

 "Is she okay?!" I heard a hysterical voice say. I groaned. There were sighs of relief all around. I opened my eyes and was looking up at Esme. I stood up and continued. There was only one door left. I opened it and this time it was the worst. Edward watching me sleep, getting ready for school, me and Edward kissing, emailing Alice, me staring out the window for months, the tall boy coming into my room from the window, the tall boy again kissing me, more cutting, Alice doing makeovers on me, and me smoking and drinking with a girl that has glasses and black hair. I gasped when I opened my eyes this time. 

"Can I go in the woods behind the house?" They nodded. I walked down the stairs, out the door, and went out back. I had a memory of me, Charlie, and people in cloaks, the Volturi. That triggered another round of memories. I was taken away by the Volturi, living in a castle, serving three kings, being part of the guard, them letting me go. One caught me attention; it was Edward wanting to go for a walk, him leaving. He caused me to cut myself. He thought he was protecting me by leaving, he was causing more hurt then protection. I walked back to the car and waited for them to get in. When they were all in I said that I wanted to go back to their house. Edward is in so much trouble.