The drinks start kicking in and we decide to meet up with a couple of our friends.
While Raven and I are more to ourselves, Lezter is more social.
Lezter could pretty much be the Ken to our Barbie aesthetic
Also matching our attire without us even telling him.
Then there's the super lit drunk friend, which is June.
Lezter walks towards us, kisses Raven on her cheek, and they have quick short small talk.
June almost tackles me as she runs up to hug me.
Lezter moves her out the way and he hugs me. Very tight.
Then he grabs my butt and moves away as I try to hit him.
"I knew you were going to do something gay!" I yell at him while laughing
"You liked it." He winks and smiles at me. I roll my eyes.
"You look so good. And it's great to see that you're out the house finally." He says as he put his arm around me.
"Yeah, blame Raven." I say and point at her. She sticks her tongue out.
Lezter moves his arm to my waist and moves closer. I push him off a little bit and he sucks his teeth.
"You just need to be held, when was the last time he held you?" Lezter asks me.
To be completely honest, it's been forever....
The only physical touch I've had from him lately is a push or a shove.
Lezter is the man that maybe I SHOULD'VE had, but instead we are good friends.
I know he likes me heavy low-key but covers it as 'close friend."
And I wish he would've told me before my man came along because baby......
Lezter could definitely get it. Anytime, anyplace like Janet Jackson said.
Right person, wrong timing....
"Not sure but it don't matter boy. It aint gonna be you!" I say jokingly.
He snorts, grabs me even closer, puts both arms around my body and puts his beard in my neck.
He smells delicious, and the way his beard feels......
I have to get him off me before anyone gets the wrong impression.
"Alright boy." I gently move him off of me. 'Thank you for all of that love."
"You need to just stop denying it..." He says, clearly noticing the reason for me pushing him away.
"We are still together and I still love him. I would never cheat." I say and look at the ground.
"Charlie......" He says and lifts chin up to look at him.
"You are worth so much more. You are beautiful. The way he messed up your face last time......"
I stop him and grab his hand.
"Things happen, I'm not perfect." I say and squeeze his hand but he stands up.
"Are you seriously blaming yourself? Like are you kidding me?!" He asks loudly but it's more concern than anger.
I just look away. Feeling bad for even saying anything.
Tears fall out of his eyes and he walks away, saying he's going to get a drink from the bar.
I get up to follow him but Raven grabs my arm and leads me to dance with her.
"Let him cool off....and stop blaming yourself. Violence is never the answer. Him hitting you is not your fault...." She says and then turns around to dance on me as the music plays.
We dance, drink more, dance and drink more.
I feel Lezter dancing behind me, Raven dancing in front of me, and June dancing in front of her.
Like a sand which.
We all are having so much.
This is what I deserve. To come outside and have fun.
Not sad in the house waiting for that man to come home.
