Broken Promises❤️‍🩹

Chapter 6

It's been a couple weeks since I have seen manik or have heard anything about him from cabir and navya, granted they are on their honeymoon, they left a week ago to Bali.

The past 3 years I have walked by manik and i's house every single day, I used to do it because even though I wasn't going inside it felt calming to me. Whenever id' have a very hard case or someone on my floor would pass away at work, id' come sit by our house.

I have never went in there alone, the day manik left I had decided I would never step foot in the house alone but today I am at my lowest. I am broken to more pieces than I thought.

Everything seems to be falling apart, it's almost like all the species I had taped back came undone and now the pieces are nowhere to be found.

As I jiggle the keys and open the door to our house, I felt a wave of nostalgia hitting me, it becomes so overwhelming as I step in the house walking up to our room.

His smell somehow still lingered in the room, the same black silk sheets he mentioned that nights were crumbled up on the bed. I had refused to make the bed because he hates when it's not made, I had hope he'd come home and ramble about the unmade bed

"I can't do this anymore" I whisper to myself sitting on the floor against the bed

My head was throbbing in pain, I know I'm dehydrated and starving but I am anxious even though I have taken the max tablets I can without causing harm to myself.

"What are you doing here?" I hear his voice

For a minute I don't believe he is there, I felt like my mind was plain tricks, it has before so why wouldn't I believe it now but I was wrong

I look up and find him standing there, I could feel my head tilting a little. He is wearing black sweats and a black t shirt, his hands in his pockets as he looks at me all confused

"I thought I told you not to be around me anymore, didn't I?" He asks

"You did" I whisper hiding my face in-between my knees and chest

I couldn't right now, I am strong but not right now, I can't.

"What's wrong?" He asks

I don't say anything instead I curl closer into myself. I am tired, exhausting, I just want to scream

"Come here princess" his words instantly bring me to tears

His arms wrap around me and I don't fight it not this time, instead I just curl into him

"Shh it's okay, everything is fine" he whispers

His fingers run through my hair and back.

I could hear myself crying and that means I was sobbing loud, loud enough for people to hear and I haven't done that in a while.

"Everything is falling apart, I lost her today. She was the last thread that I was holding onto, I lost her. She is gone, she, she won't come back no matter how hard I try. I am the worst person in this world, my mum was right, I take my bad luck with me and I hurt everyone. She was so small, I knew she tried and fuck, if I tried harsher she would have been fine but I couldn't save her" I sob in his arms.

"I know you tried your best"

"I didn't, I lost her, if I had tried my best, she'd be here"

"Shhh shh it's okay, you are okay" he assures

My brain shuts off, and not only in a way that id' like, it felt like I was blank, like I didn't know where I was, I didn't know what was going on. It takes me a second before I realize I was having an anxiety attack

"Nandini you are okay princess, listen to my voice, can you hear my heart beating?" He asks

I don't know if I nodded or said anything because my ears were ringing and I felt warm

"You are okay" his voice reaches my ears after what feels like a few hours

I find myself pulling back from the calm and peaceful place only to realize I was hugging him, his face full of worries, not to mention his jaw was green.

"Don't look at me like I have just fed you bananas" he says making me gag a little

"Oh don't be dramatic" he mumbles

I pull back completely shoving myself against he bed hurting my back

"Ahh shit" I groan

"Watch where you are going" he utters almost in urgency

"What, what are you doing here?" I ask

It felt like the last few minutes or whatever time my body was shutting down for had completely blanked from my mind

"Are you losing your memories or something?"

"No im not" I reply rubbing my back

"Then why are you here?" He asks

"It's my house" I mumble

"Ours but you don't believe in a us so im not sure what it is you are here for"

"Ours is mine and yours so yeah this house is mine too and I will come here when I want and for however long I want" I argue with him

"Isn't your little asshole fiancé going to look for you?" He bitterly asks

"He might" I lie

"Do you want him to find you here, with me?"

"He trusts me"

he chuckles a little looking at me

"Right"

"At least I don't need to assure him im not going around cheating on him" I taunt him

"Nandini you and I both know I trusted you more than myself so fuck these taunts"

"The key word is trusted"

"Yeah because you won't admit things"

"Forget it" I mumble

"Go home and leave the keys" he says

"Over my dead fucking body, this is my house too" I snap

We made this house together, from tiles to the curtains, we picked everything out. This house is made of love and honestly this house is the only thing that keeps me going