I used to dream about love before going to sleep
You know those cute scenarios your mind makes up for you so you can go to sleep with a smile on your face?
It's always some kind of fairy tale
The boy comes and get you
Brings you flowers
Makes you smile
And you have an happily ever after
Well...
Lately my mind has been so tired
It has stopped doing that too
So now I don't go to sleep with a smile on my face
I just go to sleep
And my mind goes blank
It doesn't believe in fairy tales anymore
Because those cute things I used to dream about
Are reality for most people
Not some fairy tales like they are for me
Because those things happen to people in real life every single day
Just not to me
And my mind is so sick and tired of it
Sick and tired to create fake scenarios where some stupid boy finally decides to take a chance on me
I don't think I'm this unlovable person
But maybe I am
Maybe I was the problem all along
And now my minds knows it too
"Stupid girl dreaming about love, go out there and find it"
I would like to tell my mind that I'm trying to
I'm trying my best
Fuck you.
