Indefinable attraction

Prologue

Alyssa's POV

"I can't believe you, so all along you've been playing with my feelings and emotions ... I must have looked like a big fool to you" I  said my voice trembling from the tears welling up, which I refused to make fall.

"Babe listen to me , its not what it looks like.."

"Its not what it looks like .. Uh ?"I merely shouted at him."Its never what it looks like ,does it ? you leaving me at the time I need you the most, for God sake have a heart!"

"Look" he said"." If it was my choice I would never leave you.... Because I love you.... So frigging much"his voice getter lower and he continued talking.

    I couldn't believe it for the first time he told me that he loved me ... I must say a part of me melted away and this tingling feeling engulfed my body and I could hardly keep my balance as I stare into his eyes that showed nothing but truth. But why now?? I want so much to tell him that I love him too,but I didn't want to look like a bigger fool ,plus my ego would never let me to. More tears stood more steadily in my eyes. I don't know what I'm going to do. I feel like my life is completely shattered.

   " I want to be with you so badly ,but time and the situation won't let me.. and you will never understand "

   "So make me understand." I yelled at him .

    "I can't .... I just can't , so don't make it any harder for me."he said aruptly.

  "So what the eck do you want me to do?" I said , tears coming more to the surface.

  "I'm leaving tonight and I'm probably not coming back ... So just forget about me!

Those were probably the worst words I've ever heard ,as they hurted me so much. I wanted  to go down on my knees and begged him to stay, but I knew that wouldn't change his mind

as he was so stubborn.

" Forget about you ! ... I can't, I will never be able to. "

"But you must Alli." I could hear the tears present in his voice.

"I said I can't !"

"Please , you must !"

  " No matter how much I would want to I just can't !!"

  " Why are you being like this, you know its hard for me too, so just please meet me half way!" I could tell he getting angry and irritated.

  I kept on shaking my head, until it seemed like I couldn't stop.

He held my face his hands,I loved his touch , the effect it had on me ,how will I ever forget that?

He than said why , why can't you forget about me ?

I was silent all of a sudden , how could I tell him ,how  would he react ,I can't tell him but yet he deserve to know.

"Tell me,"

Silence.

"I said tell me!" He shouted.

More silence

"Tell me"He shouted even louder.

"Because , I'm carrying your baby!" I shouted back suddenly.

I could see the shocked expression on his face as he let go of mine . He looked so confused and startled. I waited for his reply .

But nothing. It was after about six minutes before he spoke.

"Wow,why didn't you tell me before?.. .... But I still have to leave , you know , I know I might seem like a wicked self centered person , but its for the best ... And am really really sorry."

"So that's all your going to say? And you're still going to leave ... Oh could you ? don't you have a bit of empathy left, you just left me to fend for my self  and our baby? And you said you loved ..yeah right!"

I didn't even wait for him to reply , I turn away at the same time the tears flooded my cheeks.

   I could hear him calling me.

"Alyssa"

"Alyssa!"

"Ali!"

My walking picked up its speed and I began to run. I turned around to see him standing in the parking lot the same place I left him, before I turned around and started to run again.
And that was the last time I saw him.