Indefinable attraction

Chapter 1

Five years after

Alyssa's POV

   I woke up this morning with this weird feeling in my chest,I don't know what but for some reason I felt like something was going to happen ... but what? I am so sick and tired of all the disappointments in my life. I have lost everything since that day when Alex left... Five years ago.
My life
My family
My dignity
And my baby

My life turned in to roller coaster of feelings and emotions , I was basically a recked ship about to sink.

At times I have thoughts of suicide but for some reason I couldn't put a end to my life.

   He ruined me, completely.He took a part of me which I think can never be replaced , by no one and left me incomplete. I not only became a school drop out but , but I was rejected by my own family and left to for fend myself on the street . I when from job to job . Almost raped,almost went insane ,almost died...all because of  him.

I cried everyday and night since then ,my face knew not what a smile is anymore only signs of sorrow,depression and coldness.

At times I even curse God saying ; why? why? What have I done to deserve this? Do you hate me that much or does it pleases you to see me suffer?

No matter how I try to let go of my past there are constant reminders everywhere and  I will therefore  not be able to forget.

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  I slowly got out of bed and dragged myself to my bathroom. I looked into the mirror at my small fragile figure that looked back at me.

I quickly took a quick , cold shower before I got dressed into my uniform.

I added light makeup took up my purse and keys but before I could  exit my apartment the phone rang . I hissed my teeth and picked up the receiver .... But there was only silence ...and more silence but some how it felt welcoming.
Beep.

My mind wandered who could it be?

I was deep in thought went the phone rang again. I slowly picked it up only to be met with silence again but then I could hear  small grasps of air.

It sent shivers down my spine and it make my heart feel swollen .... But no one had that much effect on me ever!!................................................

Except

For

"Alex!!"

His name merely escaped my lips when the line went blank .

But it couldn't be I told myself. I still hated  that I couldn't get him out of my mind after so long .

But if it was him...., I detest what was going to happen if our path ever crossed.

   I quickly ran down the stairs and exited the building and went into the parking lot and got into my car before I could be late for work.