The Shadows of the Sun

Chapter Eleven

           Tears stung in my eyes when I awoke. Finn, oh Finn. I was back on the plane, all my onyx was back on as well. I felt nothing but defeat. I did nothing the entire plane trip. I didn't even think about anything other than my own despair. I was just numb. There was not one person in the world that was as important to me as my brother. He is gone now. Who did I have? I had no one to run to. No one to protect me. No one to comfort me. I had no one to protect. I realized that just as the plane began its descent. I had no one to protect. No one but myself. Finn would not have wanted me to spend a life in captivity. He would have wanted me to fight. So I do. I thrashed, kicked, and screamed as I was dragged off of the plane. Due to the onyx my fighting was easily contained and my screams were ignored. It's the thought that counts right. I huffed as I was squeezed in between Alec and Felix. Alec was poised to release his gift at the slightest hint of aggression. I didn't feel like getting into a fight in the car, mostly because I had a very pointed disadvantage. I knew I was going back to the castle no matter what. So I decided to make their life as difficult as I could. I fought the whole way to the throne room. The only reason I wasn't knocked out was I could not do much more than a human could. Still I thrashed and snarled, acting every bit the wildcat that was trapped within me. I was forced to my knees in the throne room, but I fought to get back up, going so far as to thrust a leg out behind me and sweep Demetri's feet out from under him with a simple latch and tug maneuver. He fell flat on his back, then quickly scrambled to his feet and dusted his robes in embarrassment. I could not hear what Aro said next over the blood roaring in my ears. I was just so angry. The wolves had taken his life, then they had taken me from him. They had forced me to leave him lying there, without a proper burial or goodbye. He deserved so much more. I was forced to my feet then all but dragged from the room. I fought the whole way. I was thrown into my room and a deadbolt slid into place on the other end of the door. I pounded against it for a while then gave up and just cried. I was so ashamed that I showed so much weakness in the dwelling of my enemies, but I just could not help it. Soon the sadness was once again replaced with anger. I broke a vase, then a lamp. I threw myself against the door again and again. Tears slipped out as I did this. I told myself they were tears of anger. The door flew open and Alec and Demetri stepped in. They took in the scene around them with little emotion. I stooped to the floor and armed myself with the glass shards. I threw them at the vampires, aiming for the eyes. They were not even close to the mark and the vampires plucked them out of the air easily. I snarled, wishing I could flare.

"Kai, everyone is aware you are upset. I know the loss of a loved one is never easy. That being said, you have to calm down before you hurt yourself. If you are unable to, Alec will be forced to assist you." I growled my warning. The sound purely animal. Without thinking I jumped on Alec, intending to stop the threat of being knocked out. I forgot my powers were reduced to that of a glorified human. Demetri jumped at me, pinning my arms behind my back. Alec's hands opened and the mist began to creep toward me. I thrashed desperately against the hold of Demetri, but it was all to no avail. The stalking mist reached me and I slumped in Demetri's hold allowing the darkness to take me away on the wings of sleep.

I was a bit calmer when I awoke. I was still angry as heck, but I was more mentally present. I understood I needed to bide my time. I needed to make sure I wasn't going to get caught next time I escaped. The door opened and Demetri's head popped in. He seemed slightly surprised that I was awake. He had brought a plate of good smelling food with him. Pesto chicken. He stepped fully into the room, latching the door behind him. Brave move. I may be severely weakened, but if I really wanted to I could still severely injure him. However I must wait for the right moment. I took the plate from him, mumbling a small thank you. I ate it quickly, not even caring if it was poisoned. They weren't going to kill me, not when they went through so much trouble with me. Demetri watched me the whole time and waited till I was done to make his announcement.

"Your presence has been requested in the throne room." I groaned

"Can't it wait." I sighed. I would rather be literally anywhere else than in that room with those creepy disco-balls. Demetri fixed me with a glare.

"No." He stated. Just like that I was being dragged to the throne room. Actually I was very proudly walking on my own two feet. Demetri had reached forward to grab my upper arm but I had let loose a warning snarl and told him if he touched me I would castrate him. He kept his hands off me. Felix was already waiting at the door when I exited, Demetri close on my heels. I marched between them with my head up high. I showed no fear and made sure the kings knew that as I strode right up to their thrones.

"You called." I said blatantly.

"Yes, I was so sorry to hear about your loss." Aro said, faux sorrow in his features. Here comes the request. "I was hoping you may allow me to see your thoughts about how you reacted yesterday. I can not punish grief, but I can punish pure desire to harm my coven." What a dumb way to explain why he needed to see my thoughts. Of course it was grief. Besides, he would never punish me. Not if he wanted my alliance freely. Not that he would get it.

"Punish me if you wish." I shrugged. Pain ended. Maybe not the mental kind though. That was a bit depressing.

Aro sighed deeply.

"I do not wish to punish you." Oh I knew that. He just wanted me to willingly comply with his wishes and brainwash me. He had seen from my previous memories I was not one to break under torture. "Felix, would you please." Faster than I would react Felix was holding my hand out in front of me with a death grip, and Aro was in front of me preparing to take said hand. I did nothing. I said nothing. Why? I don't know. It was a losing battle. I was not one to engage in a battle I did not plan to win. Call me a coward. I call myself alive. One does not survive by engaging in battle with a pack of werewolves just because the opportunity presents itself. An icy grip took my hand, but I remained still concentrating on one thought. One horribly untrue thought. I have no reason to escape now. I forced myself to believe it without a conscious thought. I didn't acknowledge it was a lie. "I have nothing to escape for anymore." that was all I thought. Aro suddenly let out a peel of childish laughter. It surprised me and I jumped a little.

"Dearest brother, it seems dearest Kaiya shares your affinity for werewolf hunting." Caius leaned forward some in his throne, red eyes gleaming. Aro pulled back, releasing my hand. Only time would tell if my trick had worked or not. For my sake, I prayed it did.

"Felix. I believe our Kaiya may have some use for a physical outlet for her mental anguish. I don't believe she would object to her training being moved up a little. Isn't that right Kaiya?" I only smiled at the strange vampire. Anything to get out of this room. Felix led me out of the room while Demetri stayed behind. It was about time I got a break from him. Unfortunately Aro was right. I was in desperate need of a physical outlet. I trained and fought as hard as I could in my onyx dampers. My strength took even Felix by surprise. I was still no match for him, but that didn't stop me from trying. This was a losing battle in ways that did not count. What truly made it a losing battle was not trying at all. And I really hated losing. I snagged a weapon from the rack as I danced away from yet another offensive attack from Felix. It was a nicely balanced short sword. Not as good as mine, but pretty darn close. I brandished it as though it was a weapon of my own creation, with complete confidence in my own ability and its ability to withstand an attack. I was not expecting the blade to break as soon as I dealt my first hit. I stared at the blade in utter confusion and with a feeling of betrayal. It wasn't supposed to do that. It was supposed to be strong. In my momentary lapse of concentration Felix wrestled me to the ground. I fought hard to get him off of me. I tried all my tricks, but in the end I was forced to surrender. He was built like a bloody freight train, not to mention he weighed just about as much as one. He gave me a devious smirk.

"Serves you right, I thought that was a no weapon fight." At some point he had forgiven me for almost killing him.

"It was never exclusively stated." I pointed out. "It was fair game." I shrugged. Demetri had shown up at some point to take me back to my rooms. I had hoped to fight more. We arrived back at my rooms and there ended my fun for the day.