Vendetta [COMPLETED]

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December 24th 2017 /2 days later Sunday

Minas POV

Chous Office 

"Chou, it's time. We need to talk. I need your decision now."

"Mina, please, can we not do this right now? I need more time to sort things out", she said.

"No, we're out of time. I can't keep waiting. I've given you enough time to figure this out".

Tzuyu stood up.

"Mina, I'm begging you. Just a little more time. I need to be sure."

I crossed my arms.

"WHAT ARE YOU AFARAID OF!?".

"IM AFRAID THAT IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU! WORRIED THAT WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER YOU MIGHT REALISE THAT IM NOT WHAT YOU WANTED".

"AFRAID? THAT WHAT ALL THIS WAITING IS ABOUT!??".

"ITS NOT JUST! THAT ITS ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THINGS DONT WORK OUT. I DONT WANT TO BREAK YOUR HEART AND I DONT WANT YOU TO BREAK MINE. I DONT WANT TO RSIK EVERYTHING WE HAVE FOR SOMETHING THAT COULD BE RUINED".

"RISK EVERYTHING? YOU'RE NOT RISKING ANYTHING BY BEING WITH ME! YOU'RE THE ONE CREATING DISTANCE, MAKING ME DOUBT AND NOW YOU'RE SAYING YOU'RE AFRAID THAT I WONT LIKE OUR RELATIONSHIP! BULLSHIT. DON'T ASSUME THINGS. I WANT YOU NOT SOMEONE YOU THINK YOU SHOULD BE FOR ME BECAUSE I WANT YOU".

"IM RISKING EVYERHTING. I NEVER FELT HIS WAY ITS A COMPLICATED FEELING AND YOU KEEP PRESSING ME TO MAKE SUCH DECISIONS KNOWING DAMN RIGHT IM SCARED TO LOSE YOU. BUT WE HAVE TIME".

"THE ORPHANGE. REMEMBER THAT. HOW WE BOTH NEARLY DIED. YOU FAED YOU BEIGGETS FEAR TO SAVE ME CHOU. YOU INJURED YOURSELF TO GET ME OUT OF DANGER. AS I DID TOO. WE FACED SOMETHING SO MUCH BIGGER THAN YOUR SELF-DOUBT OF BEING THE ONE I CHOSE. WE WERE SO CLSOE TO DEATH... BUT NOW WE ARE OUT HERE ALIVE. YOU KEEP ME WAITING, YOU'RE STALLING AND IM REMINDED THAT TIME IS SHORT. ANYTHING COULD HAPPEN".

Tzuyu's eyes widened her expression a mixture of shock and guilt.

"Mina, I—".

"No! Don't you get it? We're not promised tomorrow. I could drop dead tomorrow, and all this waiting, all this indecision, would be for nothing. Lose me because you were too afraid of your own fear to accept that I want you because I love who you are. But right now... I need a decision now, or I'm done waiting".

Tzuyu's eyes filled with tears.

"Mina, please. I just need a little more time. I don't want to lose you, but I don't know if I can do this right now."

I took a step back.

"Then its goodbye Chou", I said, turning away dropping my id on the floor.

Tzuyus POV

My Office

"FUCK!".

I shove the stack of papers off my desk, sending them scattering across the floor. I grabbed a chair and hurled it across the room, where it crashed into a corner and splintered. 

~ A few minutes later ~

Tears were streaming down my face now, hot and uncontrolled. I sank to the floor, surrounded by the debris of my office, and let the sobs wrack my body.

My heart ached with a deep, raw pain, and each breath came in shaky gasps. I felt like a failure like I had let Mina down in every way possible. I took a long swig from the bottle, the alcohol burning down my throat. The room spun slightly as I stood up, using the edge of the desk for support.

I took another swig, the liquor searing a path through my veins. My thoughts were a tangled mess of guilt and self-recrimination. I was a coward, unable to face my fears head-on. And now, I lost Mina. Lost everything that mattered to me because of my own indecisiveness. I wandered around the office, the once orderly space now a chaotic mess of scattered papers and broken furniture.  I thought about Mina's face, the way she had looked at me with such hurt and frustration. It was a look I never wanted to see again. Mina had given me a deadline, and I had failed to meet it. My fear of not being good enough, and my cowardice in making a decision, had driven her away. And now, as I sat alone in the wreckage of my office, I couldn't help but feel that I had let the most important person in my life slip through my fingers.