You don't have to read this if you don't want to. I just need to get some shit off my chest.
⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️
Over the past few weeks, my mental health has been getting worse. Mainly because I'm getting really stressed because of school (the ironic part the subject I'mstressed about I'mplanning to drop next year so it doesn't matter what grade I get but I still over work and over stress about it), but that with the build-up of shit that has happened over the year is starting to pull me back into the deep end. I haven't had therapy on over a month, and I have it tomorrow, but I just need to get it out.
I've also started self harming again. I haven't caused myself to bleed, not yet. But I've been hitting and scratching myself as well as purging(making myself throw up). Last night, I used the metal piece of my medical alert bracelet to scratch the crap out of my skin, which is kind of ironic if you think about it, it has the WHO symbol the symbol of Asclepeous (I think that's how you spell it) the Greek God of medicine. I used this thing that's supposed to help me to harm myself. Hahaha.
Gods I'm so sorry this is probably sounding so fucking selfish because all of you have so much to deal with. But I need to get it out before I hurt myself anymore than I already have.
Thanks for listening. I won't kill myself because I know people still need me or it would hurt them a lot I'd I did but I've been thinking about it again. I can't way until this Gods forsaken year is over.
