Open Arms

|12| Months Later

Aniyah POV

Life is getting a bit hard now that I'm showing. Mama started to notice and of course took the liberty and time outta her day to tell me how ugly I've become and how my stomach is bigger than ever. She was mad asf too, kept saying I ain't pretty no mo and how she wishes I was back to my old self. My old self being when I was a 5 year old and even then I got called 'chunky'.

Dad just threatened to kick me out before i turn into Tammy from 600lb life. "A few years in the streets will put you fat ass in sum shape" is what he said, he ain't never cared about me as much but now that my stomach is all big and I had to ask him for money to size up in clothes, that's when he finally said sum.

He was mad asf about having to buy me new clothes, almost rip my mf head off. (My bad for cussing) He started shouting me, calling me all sorts of names, back when I wasn't pregnant I would've been stone faced and all cause I'm used to it but dang them words cut me deep. I was balling for 2 days straight, couldn't even eat much too, just kept throwing up and crying.

With my brothers, well I'm sure you can imagine that. All the jokes and words hurt more than ever. Micheal even started hitting me if he finds any food missing. Last week, I was crazing for sum pickle wrapped bacon with ice cream so I made just that, when he found me, Lord.

Y'all should've seen his face, God could've heard all his shouting. I ain't even know why he was so mad, I do the shopping. He prolly mad cause everyone at school knows I'm his sister and everyone at school knows he got a sister that looks like a greasy hippo. His words, not mine, I see myself as more of a.....lemme stop before this baby kick me.

These days, she hits me when I say bad things about myself. Yep, she, I have a feeling and from what I saw on the internet, mama is always right.

Speaking of mamas, I've been avoided my baby daddy like the plague. He been doing the opposite tho, I can tell. I think he senses sum in my belly cause he be staring at it too much. I still love Trell but what he'll do to me when he finds out is scaring me. I've been hearing by rumors about him proposing to Dior after grad and on one side, I cannot wait to mess that up but on the other side, it's like damn, you luh that girl that much.

But it's whatever, he gon switch to loving me when he meet pumpkin. Speaking of which, this baby been on my bladder like crazy, the teachers don't even care no mo they just send me out. Principal actually called my mama about it last week which led to another "your too fat" talking to.

Plus, my boobs is getting bigger like too big and I've craving all these different foods, like last night I woke up crying cause, for some weird ass reason, I was craving a Wendy's burger with extra pickles dipped in lemon juice with sum mustard mixing with ice cream. I felt so fat eating that shit but damn it was good.

Like the flavours was hitting different, it was like an explosion in my mouth. I've been having cravings like that for the longest. Even had to get myself a job cause I be eating anything and everything.

I been tutoring the freshman chemistry after school and during lunch, it's so fun like I ain't never knew I could love chemistry this much, shits amazing. I mean apart from the fat jokes, these kids are pretty nice, plus this gon go crazy on my college application. Harvard gon have to have me( when I lose the weight ofc)

It's rewarding to see these kids fall in love with Chemistry like how I did but between rushing home straight after school and tutoring at lunch, I rarely get to see Ari and Asia. Which is starting to take a toll on me, like yes I got my lil pumpkin but it's nice to talk to someone other than myself.

I mean I do miss em but after Ari's lil comment on my weight, talking bout she "worried" I'm eating too much and my "body gaining mad weight" , I kinda chilled her and Asia too by default. But still, I miss em.