Chapter 4 - Arshi's Pov🥀🌟

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"Arshi, you are just a step away from your goal now, I am pretty sure that this time you'll get highest marks in accounts

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"Arshi, you are just a step away from your goal now, I am pretty sure that this time you'll get highest marks in accounts.

Prashant sir praised me . He teaches us accounts .

" Thank you sir " I replied .

He nodded and I excused myself from staff room .

Yes, I know I will get good and highest marks this time in accounts , cause I dont want to ruin my result due to that one subject.This only subject resulted in low grades of mine last time .
And I dont want to repeat this thing again .

Since then I started to give weekly tests to improve my performance and I think it will pay off . And sir helped me a lot with this .

I am Arshi Khanna, an introvert, rude, arrogant, strong and self sufficient girl . According to others .

But deep down I know I am not . This personality of mine is just a medium of a escape from this world .

I joined this school when I was in 6th standard.Since then , I never made any friends, cause I never wanted to .
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I am only focused on my studies rather than these double faced people around me. That's why I try to improve even a small mistake in my studies because I know it is the only thing which may protect me in future .

I sit alone , study alone , eat alone .
Everyone thinks that I don't want to live like this but no I want to live like this only . I dont believe these creatures called human .
( Not even my parents )

I hate everyone out there except some teachers and
HIM .

I sighed and entered into the class which was all filled with the hustle and bustle of students, and then I saw him .
Kartik , Kartik Roy .
I noticed him while going towards my desk . He was talking to  saloni so I instantly looked away .
(I am fine I am fine I am fine .)

I sat on my desk and did head down .
. I am not fine . I am not . It is really very hard to see him with anyone else but I dont have any choice .

I have liked him since class 6th , but now I love him . When I first saw him I never thought that I would fall for him to this extent.

I don't want to talk anyone except him , I dont want to see anyone except him , I dont want to be anyone's friend except him .

But I can't.

I always take only some glimpses of him, try to never do eye contacts cause I don't want him to know about my feelings.

Also , he likes saloni , she too likes him and the whole class know about her feelings for him . So I don't want to act as a third wheel in between them .
At least he is happy and I am happy for him . But sometimes it become difficult to see someone you like with someone else . And same happens to me . I don't want to admit
But I am jealous of her . Not just me but most of the girls are jealous of her . sometimes I think to confess to him , I know he is a good person he would never judge me for this but I know my limits . I know I can't express my feelings to him , I can never be with him . And the only reason is that decision, which my family took for me when I was a child .
The girl I am now is the result of that decision only , and I would never forget my family for this . Never .
I am not talking to my parents even. I never bring lunch box cause I dont want anything from them .

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