the lost boy

part 6

"we said it was just goodbye for now"

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the girl thought is was so interesting how you could go from absolutely adoring someone to wanting to throw them off a cliff in half a second. she also thought it was interesting that the first person she was experiencing this with was none other than peter. the love of her life, also known as the one that will make her cry the most. scratch that, he had already made her cry the most. the conversation she was currently having with peter reminded her of the time he had left her for an entire summer without telling her. it also reminded her of that feeling inside of her that had made her want to kill someone. that someone being peter. he had left her then and he was leaving her again now and there was absolutely nothing she could do to stop him. that feeling was the worst.

"i promise you i'm going to be back. i give you my word. i promise that-"

"i don't care! i. don't. care. i don't care that you'll be back, you're still going to be gone! right? you're still going to be missing from my life for a whole year! i'm not going to see you for a year-"

"it's not that bad!"

"who are you to tell me that? huh? i don't have anyone other than you, my whole goddamn life revolves around you, which i blame you for!"
"what?"

"don't interrupt me! you're going there because you have family, i get it, but when i say take me with you, you say no!"

"because your family is here!"

"no my family is you! my parents don't care about me-"

"yes they do! your parents, sophia, chloe-"

"peter stop trying to convince me that you going away isn't a bad thing. i don't like it here, i never did. i didn't choose this town, i've dreamed of getting out for as long as i lived why don't you understand that?" the girl stopped and sat down on the floor of her room, putting her face in her hands. her face had become red and puffy from crying and her throat was raw from yelling. she hadn't meant to yell, she never thought that it would escalate this much, but peter just wasn't listening to her. she breathed out a shaky breath then looked up at peter. he sat down beside her, taking her hands.

"i love you. i love you so much. i don't think you fully understand how much i love you. i've loved you every since we were kids, at the playground, even when you were a weird little ten year old who was obsessed with chocolate," he laughed. the girl laughed, then quickly frowned to make sure he knew she was still mad. "my point is that i have to go back but i cannot take you. fine, even if we're arguing that nobody cares about you, they will still report you missing and how is it going to look when i come back with you after a year and you haven't aged a day?"

"what?"

"i can't take you."

"no what did you say after that? about not ageing?

"nothing."

"peter! stop lying to me! i though we were don't hide things from each other?"

"fine!" peter paused, taking a deep breath, fiddling with his shirt. "you can't age in neverland." the girl looked at him questioningly. "i know, it's hard to believe but hey, you did fly so."

"is that why you seemed to not have aged when you came back after that summer? because you actually didn't age?"

"yeah," peter mumbled.

"you could just tell me that," the girl whispered tears pricking her eyes. she didn't know why he felt the need to lie to her.

"i know. i just...i don't know...sometimes in my head, i feel like you think i'm weird. i know you don't! but...i feel like one day you're going to wake up and realize that i'm not good enough for you, because god, you deserve the world, really. more than the world, you deserve the whole universe. i love you but also i love neverland, i love my home, i love all the lost boys there. and...if there ever comes a time to choose...i don't know if i can. i can't choose. it tears me apart from the inside thinking about this. i don't know," peter whispered, tears flowing down his face. the girl wiped them away, crying with him now. he was so pretty. too pretty to cry over hypothetical situations.

"peter, if, in the highly unlikely situation that you have to choose, we will figure it out. together. okay? i promise you," the girl gave him a smile, trying not to cry. she had to be strong for him. "it's not just peter. it's not just me. it's us. we. we will figure it out together. okay?"

"i love you," peter sniffed, hugging the girl close to him, afraid that if he let go, he would lose her.

"i love you too," the girl said. the two of them sat there, their arms clasped around each other, the promise hovering between them, both of them holding on to it as strongly as they were to each other. but sometimes promises are broken.

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short one today. i'm so tired but i rly wanted to get this done so ignore the grammer/spelling mistakes pls.  i watched little women recently and i was honestly so shocked by timothee chalamet's performacne like ok he ate?? 

also don't be a ghost reader! i would love if u left comments. oh also i watched the first episdode of agggtm and its good but also ummmmmm?! idk i have mixed opinions! adios!!