first year of highschool (kms diary)

prologue or whatever (summer break)

so uh i'm copying madelyn she wrote one of these and i wanted to do one myself so i'm making one nobody will see this but i just want to write this for me and i'm gonna actually b consistent w it bcz she always frocking forgot like bitch update but why was i ac interested in them like i need a life anyway i can do this fulfilled cuz writing monthly life updates for ur first year in highschool on wattpad is clearly the way to live rather than being some pregnant bitch who bangs some 38 yr old ugly fat man whos on his 6th wife just for an iphone 15 pro max

... ok honestly maybe i would too if i had the chance but he has to atleast wear a condom n i don't wanna b sober while tgat shit goes on (jk i would never let a man fuck me)

and literally not my problem my dad broke my phone last year just cuz i skipped school 

i would write down everything that happened that day but im a pussy so im not gon get into allat shiat

dude it's already july 29th. july 1st felt like literally a second ago and let me guess august is gonna zoom past me like the speed of light and then boom. school. myfirstgoddamnyearofhighshool to be exact honestly i'm not even that scared i'm just already done i can deadass feel myself getting exhausted by the minute and it's not even august yet 

and god forbid why the actual fuck did i pick music as one of my electives. my brother told me the teacher was nice n that he didn't expect anything from first years so ig i was js liek ok fuck it but it's coming to my senses that i need to play an instrument for a whole ass semester ineverfailtopissmyselfthefuckoff<3AND THE FUNNY THING IS i literally despised music for the last 2 yrs n the teacher 2 bcz like ok i can't play the flute so what leave me tf alone + bro's a band kid. it's honestly my fault for listening to a band kid

yeah so this is not getting published until i finish september which is in like 2 months

bye this is like off topic but i got braces today and the fact that i need to wait 2 whole fuckinh years to take these shits off is gonna drive me insane soon it's gonna like hit me

anyway yeah i was supposed to have a glow up but that's not working oujt i never even smiled with my teeth showing but now i REALLY cant and don't get me wrong like dieting is easy yk like js dont eat processed sugar it's not that hard but unfortunately i was born a whore for processed sugar honestly if it werent for fruits id b fat asf 

while we're on the topic of being fat can i just say. being obese has to be in one of atleast top 5 of my worst fears. dude i can't even lie i'm not fatphobic or anything like if ur fat then good for u ig like that's ur life idc but PERSONALLY i think i would off mysel

anyway i want to write more but i suddenly just wanna leave and update august bye!! oh yeah i js remembered my dad wanted to go to this famous singer's concert bc he's having like a world tour or smth BUT THE THING IS it's my like first concert ever n it's gonna b some artist idek... whatever bye lol OMFGGGG IM SO EXCITED FOR CLASS OF 09 THE FLIPSIDE LIKE I NEED IT TO COME OUT NOW IM GONNA REDEEM THE STEAM WALLET CODE FOR IT AND EVERYTHING anyway for real this time buh bye but i heard that the singer is actually like a top singer in korea like one of his songs is like the famous ost for kdramas or some typashit so it's kind of like a pretty big deal technically but still idk him so it's like what do i feel 

ok srsly bye

i've been reading this whole thing and editing it i need to stop caring smh i'm gonna stop saying bye now bc i might pull up again i'm done and sick with of it period ew i have a love hate relationship with the word period it's like funny when u say it right and some ppl can say it through text and give off like the non cringeyvibe(what am i even saying dude but whenever i say it it's like grade 5 all over again

OH MY GOD I HAVE MATH SHEETS TO DO FOR LIKE THE ENTIRE SUMMER MY DAD DOES THIS EVERY SINGLE SUMMER BREAK LIKE HE BUYS A NEW MATH WORKSHEET BOOK FROM FUCKINF INDIGO AND IT'S ALGEBRAIC EXPRESSIONS TODAY IT'S SO CONFUSING LIKE DO YOU THINK MY BRAIN CAN MEMORIZE ALL THOSEGODDAMN FORMULAS NO I'M NOT DOING ALL THAT BUDDY!!!1!11

lollll it's august 2nd i haven't been doing them math sheets for like 4 days im supposed to do them like every fucking day like im supposed to downstairs every morning like at 8:30 but i cant wake up early dude like u gotta wake me up and the thing is i heard my dad like complaining this morning but this dude doesnt even come talk to me like wake me up urself then 

and before you say that 8:30am is "not even that early" i'm gonna need you to waddle urself away to the closest roof and jump bcz if waking up at like the crackass of 6/7am during summer break and trying to b that girl every single day before goddamn school starts works out for u then i think you need to calm ur tits n stop lying ur ass off cuz that's not how it works. if u think ur being healthy or some shit then just to let u know UR WRONG. 

ik y'all bitches b thinking i'm the no life but i think ur just mad that i'm fine with resting n i don't have toxic shit planted in my head (jk i rly need a life it's pretty sad but stfu)

ANYWAY i heard my dad say i'm gonna need to do shit for the entire day tmrw n sunday and all i can say is dude what the fuck ever is it that serious no it's not buddy calm down and go drink some wine