TERE BIN 2

The Guilt

MeerAsim

she walked over, thinking about that dream ."matlab ye ki hum ussi ko khone se darte hain, jo humare liye behad azeez ho"
her words playing on Meerab's mind.

she slowly entered the room,
The night had passed but the room seemed even darker.
and her eyes again fell on the watch.
'subah ka sapna "
nahin... She cried.

She picked up the table clock and started to fix it...his words and the views were really haunting her in her mind "ab bulaogi tab bhi nahi aaunga"
She let out a muffled cry breathing heavily. and she wanted this time to be froze, she wanted to do everything which can heal him. Her hands were trembling by the time the watch shattered on ground and the sound of breaking glass watch causing meerab to jump in reality.

she had gone through a lot that now she could not rely on anyone, neither on time nor on herself. Then the morning prayer (Azaan)reached to her ears. Despite all this, she had faith only in Allah. Allah has given us so much courage that we can face every ups and downs of life, he is always with us she Blinked some tears, covered her head. Closed her eyes and sat devastatedly asking to Allah

"Maine sare raste band kar diye, sari kashtiyaan jala di.. ab wapas lautne ka koi sawal nahin
phir kyun woh mere Zehan -o -Khaab me Jagah rakhta hai.
Ya Allah maine usse bahut takleef di hai... agar meri wajah se usse kuch hua toh main khud ko kabhi bhi maaf nahi kar sakun gi.
O Allah! Uski hifazat karna chahe mere hisse ki zindagi uske naam kar dena...
Meri wajah se, meri zaat ki wajah se usse ya kisi ko bhi koi takleef na ho.

((I closed all the roads, burnt all the boats, now there is no question of returning, then why does he keep a place in my dreams and mind.
Ya Allah, I have caused him a lot of trouble, I gave him pain if something happens to him because of me, I will never be able to forgive myself. To live myself with this burden
Oh Allah, please protect him, even if I give up my life in his name.
No one should face any problem because of me. No one.))

Meerab prayed for him, prayed for his life, what made her feel so guilty, that she was ready to give up her life too. God knows, what was she asking for forgiveness for?
her care for Murtasim?

Was it just the goodness in her or something which she was not aware of it , Meerab does not care about her own feelings, she is unable to understand it. she only wanted him to be happy and protected.
fighting with her own emotions ,
she closed her eyes and wiped her face.

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Murtasim came out of the hospital safe and sound, he had some minor injuries , there was some relief but it was no less than the pain that because of him someone inside was fighting between life and death.
He had never thought in his life that someone could die because of him.

His car was badly involved in an accident and he was seriously injured. He went and sat near the parking lot of the hospital, there was anger and guilt in his eyes, of guilt that he could not save the life of the man who saved his life, now what kind of face will I show to his family members who had promised to get justice.

Angered by this, the goons, to take revenge from Murtasim, tried to take the life of an innocent person.
One thing was clear that
He did not want to kill Murtasim but just to scare him so that he would step back from whatever action he was going to take. his jaw clenched ,eyes red filled with tears and anger running in his head,

he relived the Last night's view

"When he sat in the car, a big truck came at high speed and was about to hit his car, when the two people whom he had called in that night,
One of them saw a truck coming towards Murtasim, so he came in front of Murtasim's car, Murtasim lost its balance, Murtasim's car went through partition barrier on the bridge and the truck hit the man badly. he suffered a head injury and He remained unconscious in the car for 15-20 minutes After some time, the ambulance and police came. When he saw opened his eyes, everything became blurry for a moment, somehow he controlled his thinking, collecting his thoughts.