Zui Gu🔞 ( mtl)

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　　"If one day, what I want to do succeeds, and I am still alive in this world, then you can call me Xie Langjun again, okay?"

　　His voice was tender and gentle, but Yan Zhaozhao's eyes couldn't help but be sour. When she was abandoned by her relatives, she only felt cold in her heart, but not a trace of sadness. But now, when Xie Ci Yan said this, she felt distressed, because she knew that this man really had her in his heart and would say such words for her.

　　"Not good!" Yan Zhaozhao suddenly looked up, her eyes red and misty as she looked directly at Xie Ci Yan. "Am I the kind of person who would worry about you getting me in trouble?"

　　Seeing her red eyes, all the words that he wanted to persuade her to stay away from him were blocked in his throat and could not be said. "Of course not." Xie Ci Yan sighed helplessly, raised his hand to touch the top of her head, but she took a step back to avoid him. "Zhao Zhao..."

　　"If not, why are you pushing me away?" She straightened her back, and her hands hanging by her side had been clenched into fists. "I can stand with you and do what you want with you!"

　　Xie Ciyan's face changed slightly, "No, you..."

　　He was interrupted by Yan Zhaozhao before he finished speaking. She didn't listen to what he said at all, and just said everything she thought in her mind: "Why not?!" Yan Zhaozhao's eyes were more misty, and Xie Ciyan's face in front of her was already a little blurry. "I'm not a pampered dodder. I don't need to be protected behind you all the time and be the girl who can only cling to you when you succeed!"

　　Yan Zhaozhao was about to cry, her red lips trembling slightly. She took a deep breath and whispered, "That day you told me in Phoenix Tower that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me. But I thought that the rest of our lives would be to share the same bed and grave, to be able to share the same mud and also to share the same glory."

　　She raised her eyes, as if she wanted to see the man in front of her clearly, but found that her vision was blurred. She couldn't help but blinked, and crystal tears silently slid down her eyes, "But now... you are going to abandon me."

　　Xie Ci Yan raised his hand and gently wiped away the tears on her face. The cold tears seemed to turn into magma at this moment, burning his fingertips, as if his whole body was burning, his throat was dry, and his voice was hoarse. "I didn't." He couldn't bear it any longer, and suddenly hugged the woman in his arms, no longer calm as before. "Zhao Zhao, I didn't..."

　　Yan Zhaozhao turned her head away, trying to push the man away with both hands, but he was holding her with great strength. After she pushed a few times and found that she couldn't push him away, she gave up, "You are pushing me away like this now, aren't you abandoning me behind you?"

　　She always knew what Xie Ci Yan wanted to do, and also knew why he pushed her away and didn't let her step into this muddy water. But she didn't want him to carry all the burdens on himself and leave her alone outside the circle. She didn't want to stand outside the circle and watch him sinking into the mud and could only be anxious and uneasy. She wanted to be his support in the mud.

　　For Yan Zhaozhao, there is nothing more romantic in the world than walking side by side.

　　Seeing that Xie Ci Yan was still silent, she pouted and her eyes became redder. "Are you worried that I will implicate you?"

　　Hearing her choking voice, Xie Ci Yan could no longer hold back and let go of her hand, blurting out, "No." Seeing that she was about to cry again, he raised his hand to wipe her tears, but she dodged him again. He could no longer help it, and sighed helplessly: "Zhao Zhao, do you know how dangerous what I am going to do is? At the very least, my head will fall off; at the worst, my entire family will be implicated. Do you understand the pros and cons?"