A lost soul

The dark days

I'm laying in bed, I can feel the darkness tightening around me. Like I'm being choked, but I don't care. Nothing matters like it used to do. The darkness can choke me, I'm ready death, you can take me.

It's 1 pm when my mom knocks on the door "Honey, can I come in? I've got you something to eat". I can feel my stomach rumbling, it has been for hours, if only I had the energy to get out of bed. "Hey baby, here you go". The smell of noodles climbs into my nose. I slowly start eating while my mom looks at my sunken face. "So, I was thinking. Maybe it's smart to look for a job or something. Just for the vacation, to get your mind off things". I feel a punch in my stomach, does she really think now is the time to think about work and making money? But I know my mom, she wants me to give it a try. "I'll think about it". My mom gives me a little smile "thank you". And with that she leaves and it's just me and the darkness again.