A lost soul

Doubts

I'm walking outside to get some fresh air. The music coming from my headphones bursts through my head. Anything so I can't hear my thoughts. I feel tears walking down my cheeks and the panic is is rising in my chest, I have a hard time breathing. I just wish Maeve was here. That safe feeling that I haven't been able to feel for months, she makes me feel it again. And it's terrifying. It makes me panic like I've never panicked befor. Ever since a couple months ago, since her, I haven't felt like this. I can't lose it, not again. Should I do this? Should I trust Maeve or will it be a huge mistake?

I feel my heart pounding through my chest. I get my phone out of my back pocket befor I dail the phone number. The ringing stops and I hear a known voice "hey, this is the voicemail from me, Naomi. I'm not here right now, call me back later, I don't listen to my voicemails often". My eyes feel swollen from the tears and I let out a shaky breath.

I'm going to do it.

I'm going to trust Maeve.