A Key to your Heart

Chapter 14

Key and his Traumas
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He's hot. I mean literally, he's burning up.

The thermometer rang and i pulled it out from Key. The thermometer showed he was 38.7 celcius. Its pretty high should i carry him to the hospital? Maybe i'll ask him if he wants to when he wakes up.

I found him in the elevator earlier when i rushed to go home when i got calls from him. He's laying down there crying when i held him he passed out and i brought him back to the house. When i entered the room earlier i saw a lot of tear stains from his bed probably because of crying a lot. I removed the bed sheet and placed another before laying him down.

I did hear him cry earlier before i leave but i still decided to leave because i overheard him talking to Zin so i thought he's fine. He did not say anything to me nor to manager that he has a fever. If he could have say so i wouldn't have left him alone.

I looked at my phone and check the time. Its already lunch time. I stood up to get some foods but Key suddenly grabbed my wrist.

"Please don't leave me too" He pleaded and started crying again.

"Don't worry i won't Key, kukuha lang ako ng pagkain natin" I said.

"No please, they told me an excuse like that too but they left me" He stated while crying.

I hugged him and caressed his hair "Don't worry i would never leave you again" I said.

After staying in that position for a while he fell asleep so i got the chance to get some foods and some wet towels to wash his body.

When i came back he's still deep in his sleep so i started to clean his body up to lighten up his temperature a bit. When i finished i ate my food and while i placed his food on the side table for him to eat later.

I opened up my phone when i finished my food and called Zin.

"Oh hello? Lunch break ko 30 minutes to talk kakain pa ako" He said when he picked up the phone.

"Tell me the story behind Key, why is he afraid of someone leaving him" I said and a moment of silence went in for a while.

"Fine, i guess its alright to tell you this"

"Key is an abandoned child" He said that shocked me.

"He might not have noticed but he had a trauma because of that, he's always afraid when he thinks that someone will leave him, especially earlier" He continued as i listened to him.

"He called me and he was so afraid of the thought na baka umalis ka den sa tabi nya. He didn't exactly say that but he's afraid of what reason you might say on leaving him alone that day and he's afraid if you will learn about how he felt that day" He explained.

So thats why he was so angry back then. I guess its really my fault.

"If you're thinking that its your fault your right. Because i am the person behind Shukazu Nam, Akiro. Thats the mistake you did, pinangunahan mo agad ng selos di mo man lang tinanong kung sino. You know what happened to me and Cench back then i thought you already knew the better move. If you like Key say it to him, don't keep him in the dark. He'll only think na iiwan mo siya lagi because of what you did" He explained that shocked me.

I do like Key.

I then was shocked when an arms suddenly wrapped around me from my back.

"Key?" I asked.

"Looks like he's there na i'll take my lunch break bye bye goodluck" Zin said and hunged up.

"If i listen to you, would you not leave me?" He said as i feel his tears fall to my back.

I held his arms firmly and breathed heavily.

"I won't leave you ever Key" I reassured him.

"Then i'll listen what to what you have to say" He said as he burries his face in my back.

I recollected my thoughts and thought about what Zin said.

So he's Shukazu Nam. Fuck, i was so jealous of him being so close to Key that even manager says it. I'm so fucking dumb. I should have asked him who it was before i decided to make a move myself. I acted harshly again, i don't know how to start explaining to him.

I have so many thing to tell him that i don't know where i should start. I want to tell him how i feel, how i thought about me getting in his way, how i always felt around him.

I want to tell him that i like him. I wanted to tell him that i want to get closer to him more than who ever it was. I wanted to tell him that i lied about the reason why i asked for when will he go back to Bulacan back then. I wanted to tell him that he's the man that i've been waiting for after i got rejected by Zin. I wanted to tell him that i've liked him since back then.

"Key"

Its now my chance to tell him everything. Don't be a coward now Akiro, you're confident on courting Zin back then even if you're in the losing game. You have to be confident now Akiro.

"I like you"

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