My Diary

My favorite cousin☺️

I woke up to the smell of bacon from my little brother. (I swear I'm not the youngest one in the house, ight) my mom called me and made sure we were getting dress n stuff. I told her yes, my big brother Micah got onto Ryan's ass because he wanted to wear a long sleeve shirt as hot as it is outside lord have mercy. I picked out black jeans with a grey American Flag shirt. I quickly jumped in the shower, got out, brushed my teeth, put lotion and my deodorant on. When I finished, I had to put my shoes on. Mom was already here before I could even do that. So I shoved them on, and tucked in my shoe lace. When we back out our drive way, the truck was messing up so we had to wait for a little. I got out, went and played the game for a little. It was time for us to go so I accidentally left the game on. Usually, when I feel that my game is hot, I turn it off for awhile. But I left it on. All damn day. We took off from our house and I directly started listening to my dubstep songs. Later, we almost got lost. We stayed in one spot for about 5 min then we started moving. When we arrived, I said "damn, they got a big ass house..." My mom looked at me and said "lil boy, u need to watch yo mouth" everybody started laughing which is brothers and my sister. When went in and I ran straight to my Aunty and hugged the shit outta her. "Ugh, Aunty I missed yall so much." She just laughed and said the same thing which was kinda mean and funny. Micah went to the couch and saw a big bowl full of DumDums (the candy). He said "lemme get some lol". I looked at him and laughed. Yeah, I snook me sum in my hand as I was walking to the couch. Ryan: "oooo where yall get those?" I looked at him and was like, bitch shut the fuck up damn. Then I pointed to the bowl and he ran like nothing to get some. Later, I got bored and got on my vita, and played Minecraft before it was time to eat. My vita started messing up so I got off and watched tv. All I saw was men dancing but in girl forms. No they weren't transgenders, but they were gay☺️. Look, I'm not that type of gay, I'm gay in my form, which is man but still a bottom forever. OK OK OK. The food was ready, and I went straight to the kitchen. My Aunty looked at me in a funny way, which made me scared so I rushed to the bathroom and wash my hands. Shay (my sister) was like "ugh we would let Jr. go first" I looked and was like "well, Aunty Tanya looked at me in a certain way soOOOooo..." Ryan smart ass mouth gone say "Jr. you need to hurry up cuz I'm hungry and you making me old!" I just dried my hands off, walked out pass Shay and Mickey and hit Ryan's shoulder while passing him. •Skip the food part• All we ate was a Burrito with Nacho Cheese them drunk Gatorade. I got a little bored and uncomfortable watching TV. So, me and Ryan went down stares and played with this big ass exercise ball. Adrianna (frienemy) called and was like "ohh. This damn girl get on meh nerves and I can't deal with it!" Then I heard Rapture in the background. "Uhh booboo you the one that was being stupid why u talkin bout I get on nerves little girl!" I just sat there listening to them fighting until I said something. "Uh can yall call me later, I'm playing with my brother..." That's when they hung up all in meh face. I continued playing with Ryan until we got tired. By the time we got tired, we sat on the couch and got on our phones. I kept texting Ryan scary faces on Facebook Messenger and started laughing out loud. My phone was on 34% and I don't let meh phone get pass 40% when I have my charger. Minuets later, me and Ryan heard footsteps coming done the stairs. Pretty much I thought it was Mickey but when I looked *People in my head cheering on loudly* it was Troy... My favorite cousin in the world goddamnit. I got up, he gave me some weird hand shake like we were a gang or sum. I was like "da fuck" and sat right back down. Seeing his big ass smile was just sooo damn cute I tell ya. Lord I saw my favorite cousin!! I couldn't be no more than excited when I saw him. We grew up together until I had to move to Mississippi. Me and Ryan stayed on our phone for awhile because we didn't really know what to do. Troy: "I'll be right back." "Ok" I said trying not to sound concern. Minutes later he came back and was like "hey. Umm my dada wants to see yall.." "Ok" Ryan said before I said anything. We go upstairs lookin all in the living room, wasn't there. The kitchen, wasn't there. We go outside in the garage and saw Troy's dad finally😩😩😩. "WASSUP DAMN I HAVENT SEEN YALL IN A WHILE! LOOK AT YOU JUNIOR, YOU DONE GOT TALLER AHAHA! SO WASSUP WATCH YALL BEEN DOIN HUH?!" I said "nun" all quietly while he blew his hot ass breath in my face. Ryan just said "oh I haven't been doing nun really." Laughing and shit. Troy's Dad: " OH WELL I JUST WANTED TO SEE HOW YALL LOOK NOW ITS GOOD TO SEE YA!" Then I said "it's good seeing ya too" while walking away back to the damn basement. We got back to the couch in the basement and got on Facebook. Now that's when I figured out that gay marriage was legalize so I was happy as fuck and my ass liked the post then Ryan gone say "uh Junior, why do you like Gay Marriage?..." Now I thought to my head "this little ass hole" Troy looked at me all smiling lord have mercy I just wanted to run to him and just kiss his big ass lips😭 but anyway, I had to figure out what to say and I said "uh...I liked it because uh.. It just... They finally legalize Gay Marriage and I'm just happy for them. I looked back at Ryan and he said "oh..." It was a quiet moment til Troy said sum. "Yall wanna play a game? It's kinda getting boring..." "Yea we can" I said quickly lol. He had put in Call of Duty Black Ops 2 in and went to zombies. Ryan was just embarrassing me like. I'm good at it but what he does just makes me wanna cuss his ass out but I just look and smile then turn back around. We kept taking turns and Troy wanted to go eat so he left me and Ryan downstairs and got him some food. Before he came back down here, Ryan wanted to go hold Khylar ( Shay's baby girl) and get a sucker. So I was just down there all by myself like, ok what do I go upstairs for, oh nun. Troy came back and was like "Where's Ryan?" I said "you didn't see him up there?" "Nope" "oh he went to go hold Khylar real quick." "Oh that's the baby's name?" "Yeah". So it was just me and him. I didn't want to look in his face because if I did, I'd draw attention and he'll be like lol what the hell. With his big ass smile. So he asked me "do you lift?" I looked so fast over to where he was and made up a lie "uh..no...not in a while..." "How long has it been since you lifted?" "Not too long ago. Right before school was out😅" "oh" Now I don't mind doing little workouts but when I say I'm soft.. I'm soft as a muddfucka. I don't want to touch dirty shit, no muddy shit, I don't like putting my hands in the sand, when I have to pick up trash, I pick it up with only two fingers and rush to the trash before it falls. When I take the trash out, I lift the lid as fast as I can and throw the trash bag in the dumpster. I'm not saying that I'll just grow fat and wait until somebody makes me workout. I just want to keep it simple. I would hate to have more muscle than my boyfriend. Ryan came back down with a sucker and was like "junior had sex with somebody." I looked at Ryan so fast, I thought the devil was about to come out my eyes. "What?" I said making it un-noticeable. I've been trying to stop Ryan from telling Troy what had happened with me and Tre, my other cousin... "Ryan stop because I can tell him what you did!" And his smart ass mouth "well at least I did it with girls and not boys!" My feelings got hurt lol. Troy over there smiling still waiting on Ryan to tell him. So I gave up "Ryan, just tell him😒" "ok Troy, do you know our Aunty Kei Kei?" "No" "Oh well one summer, her son and Junior made a club house and me, Junior, Tre, and his brothers was in there." "Mmhmm" "Junior had unzipped his pants and started doing it with Tre." I said "Ryan no we didn't. We was about to but moma came up in there!" "Okay you still was gonna do it." I wanted to choke Ryan so badly but nawl. Then I remembered "and Ryan had sex with his little brother too lol" "no I didn't that was you..." "Nawl boy that was you because I remember when he told me that YALL did it ahahahah!" "Who cares I still did girls😋" I thought in my head "and I still got dick!" Troy was just like what the hell yall been doing lol. But Troy didn't care really. It wasn't no awkward moment until it got quiet. Ya see, me and Troy grew up together and when he heard about what's been happening, he didn't care but he did laugh which was like... Idk a good thing? But that's what made him my favorite. He's mature, funny, goofy as fuck, cute very cute, and he didn't judge or hate that I did it with someone else. But Troy was my first cousin that I ever did it with. I think he made me gay but it doesn't matter because I'm still happy. But anyway, Troy was over there laughing his ass off and I'm like, "oh... Heh it is kinda funny... I guess.." We played the game, made a few laughs like Ryan showing ugly ass girls all in my face n shit. But the day went by fast. Way too fast. We went upstairs to Troy's room and chilled for a while before it was time to go. I had to charge my phone, so I looked for an outlet and went straight to that beside going "to the bed". I don't let my phone get passed 40% with my charger. I played 2 Dots for the first time and it wasn't bad really. Ryan was on YouTube looking at this funny ass vine but it was old as fuck. His little ass put it on Facebook, and I tried my best to stop him but it didn't work😒😒😒. Troy was just laying down dozing off a little. It was all quiet until Mikey texted me "it's time to go". And I was like damn. I got up and told Ryan we finna go and got my stuff together. Me: "well Troy, we finna go and I'll see you, *stretches* whenever I guess." "Ight, see ya" I thought to my head "that muthafucka" Ryan: "Ight bye Troy" we walked down stairs and I quickly hugged Aunty. "Bye Aunty see you soon" "bye Junior I love you" "I love you too". Well no confessions or nun. Just a goodbye Troy and that was it. Adrianna and Rapture called me and was like "uh yeah mmhhmm sho do." And I'm like "so what do yall want because I'm listening to my music and there ain't nun to talk about." "Well we just wanted to get on the phone like... Idk" later we get home and Rapture is all like "uhh I'm bored and yall not saying nun." "Well Steven don't feel like talking" *Adrianna gets cut off "well if he don't want to say nun then he can hang up" I hung up the phone as quickly as I can and just stop playing meh music. The front door was lock and my mom was just sitting there, Mikey cussing her out for shit I don't know. I'm standing at the front door like "omg if yall don't hurry up!" Then Ryan opens the door and I went straight to my room. Kept the light off, closed the door, went to a corner and laid down on the floor in complete dark. Ryan scared ass gone come in my room and was like "can I sleep in here" and I said "just close the door" I heard the door close but later I said "turn the TV on" it was just silence. I looked up and he wasn't even in here. I'm like "ok I'm going to sleep." I went to sleep and had a dream with Troy. Nothing serious just talking about stuff like games and TV shows.