Dear You,
Things have been great with J.C. He's a really sweet man. We have our differences here and there, but he wants to take care of me, and whenever I'm with him, he does just that. He's funny, charming, he likes to game. I still think you two would make great friends.
As of the 1st, we've been dating for two months. And as you know, my birthday was on the 2nd. He bought me a big happy birthday balloon, my favorite cake, a big bouquet of beautiful flowers, and some jewelry. It was amazing. Then, we went out to eat and then went to a rock concert. The night was great. I turned Nineteen. It feels like such a big number. Soon, in just a couple of weeks, you'll be eighteen.
Three days ago, you favorited one of my photos on TikTok. It was a photo of one of these letters, one I'd written to J.C. Why did you? In the description, I was talking to you, I know this, but you hadn't interacted with my account since we stopped talking. You only ever spied. Then, when I saw your profile, you had your twitch in the bio, and your twitch had your correct Instagram and your discord. Were you trying to get me to notice? Were you trying to bait me? You tried very hard to make sure your other socials were well hidden from me, yet suddenly you don't care? It all confuses me. Maybe that's what you want; to confuse me. That sounds like you.
But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe you're just happy for me, and no longer care if I know your socials. Maybe you know that I don't need them, that I won't reach out. Maybe you know. I hope you've been well. I hope you've been able to understand, and to let go of whatever hatred you may have still had for me. I hope you no longer see me as your enemy.
I don't know why I still think about you. It's not as much, that's for sure, but still. I'm happy though. I don't think of you in a 'wish you were still mine' kind of way, I just wonder. How are you? What have you been doing? Are you starting college this semester? Are you going to that technical school you were thinking of going to? Have you met anyone new? I wish we could just catch up. But it was your choice to leave for good. I'm just trying to respect that.
-K
