HP/Marauders one shots

Patronus' and Depression

This week in Defense we were practicing our Patronus'. We started learning about it last week, but this week is dedicated to physically trying to conjure the protective spell in the form of an animal.

Yesterday, I got it around my seventh try. It was a beautiful and graceful dove. It flew around the room for the last half hour of class before we left.

I walked into the class room a smile on my face, I was looking forward to seeing my patronus again. Before I even got two steps into the class however, I heard the voice I always dread make itself heard.

"Hey fatty," Monika said as she walked up to me her two friends following and forming a small blockade where I was trapped against the wall. She was a gryfindor, along with her friends. I was the small ravenclaw.

"So are you gonna finally do it, fatty? Gonna finally cut yourself to death?" Helen piped in.

Darcy suddenly said, "yea isn't that how you got all those ugly scars? From cutting yourself?"

Monika laughed, "Darcy you know those scars are because her family hates her."

The marauders walked in making the girls leave me in peace to go bother Sirius, James and Remus for dates. I felt bad for Peter as he sat there all left out, but I didn't think of it much as my depression washed over me.

They were right, my family hated me and beat me. They didn't want me.
My depression got stuck with me as I sat down at my seat and thought of how messed up my life was.

Professor Salicer walked in and stood in front, "Okay everyone, wands out, start practicing." She sat at her desk to grade papers.

Chairs made the annoying scraping sound as everyone got up and went in groups to practice. I went and hid in the corner to try and distract myself by making my pure dove patronus, but no matter how hard I thought, I could not remember any good memories to create it, only ones made of pure horror.

Flashbacks started of being beaten and staved. As more and more flashbacks happened it made it harder and harder, but I kept trying.

Tears flowed as I tried to think of good memories. The words expecto patronum sounding tiny and weak coming from my mouth.

I was so deep in my own little pitty party world that I didn't notice that Professor Salicer was standing next to me. I felt a hand touch my shoulder making me jump, that is when I noticed she stood next to me.

I looked around the room. It was empty except for me and Professor Salicer. My gaze goes up to her. "I'm sorry," I whisper.

She looked at me with a knowing look, "It's okay, but Miss.Fate, I wanted to let you know your not alone. You are not the first I've seen who can master the Patronus one day, and not the next. If you ever need a someone, I'm here. Not just as a teacher, but as a friend. Someone who will listen."

I smiled and hugged her, a smile on my face. "Thank you," was all I said as I left the class feeling better.