𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐍 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒 ✧ 𝐏𝐄𝐃𝐑𝐈 𝐆𝐎𝐍𝐙𝐀́𝐋𝐄𝐙

𝐗𝐕. 𝐈'𝐋𝐋 𝐖𝐀𝐈𝐓 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐘𝐎𝐔

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I give myself a few more days to think what to tell Pedri. I did mess it up but I can only pray that he'll forgive me now.

He still doesn't pay much attention to me but at least he doesn't blatantly ignore me anymore.

I go down the stairs and see them all sat on the living room sofas, except Pedri. I'm guessing he's in his room, he usually is.

They turn to me and I send them a quick smile before I walk down the hall to Pedri's room.

"Maybe they'll finally figure out whatever is going on between them." I hear João say.

Hopefully we do.

I knock on the door and hear shuffling inside. I can't hide that I'm nervous, it won't be easy to get him to come over.

I guess you could say I might be indecisive.

He opens the door slightly and then takes my arm in his hand, pulling me into his room once he sees it's me.

"We need to talk." We both say at the same time.

"You go first." He says. I nod and we go to sit on his bed. He sits against the headboard whilst I sit with my legs crossed, facing him.

"You might hate me for this or whatever, I know you said you wouldn't be at my feet when I finally decide this but - " I start but he interrupts me.

"What, you want to try with me?" He asks but says it as more of a statement rather than a question.

"I - " I start but then exhale. "Yes, I do, I'm not scared of the group dynamic getting ruined or whatever. It wasn't that ever, I was just scared to open up after last time."

"You have to realise that what you did hurt me." He says.

"I know it did and I'm sorry." I say.

"It may have only been one night but I realised that I've liked you for a long time now and that one night felt like so much more then and when you said the next morning you regretted it, it should've never happened and everything else, it just crashed down on me. I literally couldn't stop thinking about that night, I still haven't, and then you just say that." He says, looking at me. "It hurt, Maya."

"I know and I'm so sorry. I just got scared that I was getting so close with someone again and my body just said no immediately and closed off, not even thinking about how it could've made you feel. And then my brain just used the excuse of not wanting to ruin the friendship group if anything ever happened. I never intended to hurt you, I didn't think. I know you said you weren't going to be at my feet but I just want us to at least talk again."

"You can't let your little menliker ex-boyfriend stop you from making new, better relationships." He says.

"You all joke about how Diego ended up liking men but you seem to forget that he literally cheated on me multiple times and all the other shit he did — exposing my secrets that I trusted him to keep and all the other toxic stuff he did. It's not easy to just open up again after someone betrayed your trust like that and made you go through that kind of shit." I say and his features immediately soften.

He takes my waist and pulls me onto his lap. I shift around and end up straddling him as his hand goes to my thigh, stroking up and down.

"I guess I've never really opened up to someone that way and been betrayed by them so I can't say anything." He says, holding eye contact whilst I feel his hand continuing to stroke my thigh. "I would never do to you what he did, you can trust me, you know that, Maya. I know I said I wouldn't be at your feet but I cannot help myself. You're all I want."