LUST • BTS

[Chapter - 9]

It was only two minutes when Seokjin came to the same place he was sitting till now. He didn't looked so pleased by that call either.

"What were your fiancee saying?" Bora forced a smile, even her voice was cracked up.

He took a look at her before turning it to the tv screen where the movie was still playing with a low volume. "She's coming back to Korea in few days."

Her heart broke even though it was not her place to feel sad. Why would she feel sad? He wasn't her boyfriend, fiance nor husband. She had no relationship with him to claim him as hers but that girl had.

"Oh," she responded shortly, even though she wanted to say something to lighten the mood but she failed miserably as her throat give up on saying any words.

"Do you hate her?" He asked.

She felt hesitated to say anything, but began, "No.. I mean, why would I hate her?"

He didn't say anything to that.

"I.. want to go to sleep," She mumbled, standing up feeling awkward to even be there.

Before she could move away, his fingers curled around her wrist softly. She looked down at him and saw him staring at the tv.

"Are you trying to avoid me?" He asked, sounding serious and hurt.

"No," She lied, because actually she was trying to do that. It felt like a sin to be involved with an engaged man. "But I think, you should wear your engagement ring, I sometimes make mistake."

She freed her hand from his grasp, walking towards her room. She closed the door, as an usual pace so he wouldn't suspect.

Sitting on the bed, she exhaled a breath feeling her eyes burn with tears. She looked up to avoid the tears from falling down. It took only one phone call to show her real place. She doesn't belong to Seokjin, it might be bitter but it was true.

Being with him made her forget that he was already engaged. She knew it wasn't because of love but their families insisted so, also the girl was daughter of one of managing directors of their company. He got engaged while she was away. She felt like she committed a sin by spending moments with him as if he was hers.

Bora was defeated against herself as she cried. That's what she exactly feard, loosing him. She might have confessed that she had feelings for him year ago so she wouldn't be now crying in her room, being locked, hearing about his fiancee. She never felt sad after her breakup with Yoongi, rather felt relief but now she's feeling lost, crying herself to sleep when it's about loosing Seokjin. She was in love, deeply emotionally and mentally.

No, she needed to go back. Go back to America before she lost the control over her feelings and things got mess up badly.

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The ride back to the dorm was awkward and silence in the next early morning. It was only six. Bora tried to talk as less as she could knowing she needed to maintain the space between themselves. If she involved herself with him even more, she's going to hurt even more.

"I'll text you, time to you. Keep your phone to yourself,"

Bora came back to reality hearing Seokjin's voice. She glanced at him with a simple nod, before she left the car.

"Bye."

He waved and mouthed 'bye' to her bid.

Bora sighed, seeing the car vanished slowly. It was hard to let him go but she was not sure about his feeling. He definitely didn't love her, otherwise why would he agree for the engagement while she was in states.