fnaf movie vanessa shelly x fem!reader

loml

tw. angst / no comfort, you're married to vanessa, not really happy marriage

song rec(s). loml , fresh out the slammer - ts

everything seemed perfect.

your marriage with vanessa was good. you loved her and she loved you. but you felt lonely most of the times. vanessa was never home. she kept on burying herself in work and pushing herself to the edge. you always told her that she can talk to you, you are there for her. but she never took the chance to be more open. you knew about her past, how hard was it for her but didn't you prove enough for her to trust you more?

this topic always came up while you were having dinner or while you were just having a moment of peace.

tonight wasn't different. you had to tell her how lonely you felt. how loveless this marriage felt from the inside while looking perfect on the outside.

you just couldn't keep on waiting for her. maybe, your love wasn't enough for her? she never told you what she exactly wanted.

you took a deep sigh as you put your fork down. "i can't keep on living like this." you looked down at your plate. you had to stay strong. strong for your wife and for yourself. you needed to figure something out. quick.

vanessa looked up from her food. she felt guilty. she knew, she wasn't there for you a lot of times. but she still had to process everything that had happened to her. she met you after her coma and she still wasn't over it. and she just couldn't open up.

"you're never home and i just-" you shook your head and dared to meet her gaze. "i don't know what to do." you murmured out. it was hard. for both of you.

vanessa nodded with each of your words. "i know." her voice was weak and quiet.

the silence that came felt so loud.

when both of you met everything was different. sure, vanessa was closed up but it was still better. you spent nights just talking about everything. little after your wedding day, she started to stop sharing things with you. like her day, how she is. she brushed it off. even when you invited her to your shared bed, she turned you down multiplie times. you respected it, of course. but you just didn't understand why she wouldn't talk to you like how she used to. what happened?

even vanessa didn't knew what was wrong at all. she just still needed time.

"vanessa, you know, you can talk to me, right?" you asked. you were a little bit scared from it but you did it.

she nodded as she set her eyes on the now cold food in front of her. "i know." she responded, her voice just above a whisper.

"vanessa, i'm tired. i'm tired of waiting for you because i feel like you're never here." you sighed and ran a hand through your hair. "i feel... lonely." it felt scary saying it out loud. but you had to. because if not then no changes will be made. for the sake of your marriage. for the better or for the worse.

with every second pessing by it felt harder for you to hold back tears. and for vanessa as well.

vanessa couldn't and didn't even dare to look into your eyes. the guilt was eating her up.

this conversation felt more deeper than the other ones. because you finally said what you were feeling.

"you can't keep on burying yourself in work, vanessa. you have to be with me too. mentally too." you explained with a soft tone. "i want to make this work." you whispered. you weren't sure what was going through your wife's head.

vanessa wanted this too. she just couldn't forget. she will never. but she doesn't want to hurt you any more.

"i'm sorry." her voice broke. she covered her face in her palms.

your lips parted and you just stared at her. you didn't know what exactly to do. comfort her? give her space?

"i never wanted to hurt you." she spoke up and lowered her hands and looked right into your eyes. now that she was fully facing you, you noticed how tired she was. the bags under her eyes. her rather messy hair. she looked like a mess.

before you could have said anything, vanessa stood up from her seat. she rushed to the front door to put her shoes on and gathered her keys then stormed out of your shared home.

it happened so quickly. you just sat at the table above your cold food. you leaned back into the chair and let out a heavy sigh. a few fast blinks and tears formed in your eyes. you couldn't hold back any longer. you never wanted her to leave like this. with so much hurt.

you wished this was just a bad dream and you would wake up in any second. but no. this wasn't a dream, this was reality.

you just hoped vanessa would be back soon. that she wouldn't do anything stupid. you wouldn't be able to handle that. you can't lose her. you loved her so much. you truly thought what you had was special.