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Chapter 2: Adoring Her Brown Eyes
Freen's Pov
I bust the door open and immediately lock the door. I can feel myself turning pale, my hands are shaking as well as my knees buckling anytime soon.
My heart beat so fast, it's so fast I can hardly breathe. Why am I feeling this way? How?
Ever since she kissed me 5 years ago I've been asking myself if I do love her. Do I? If not, why am I glad that she's here now?
Why am I feeling this way? Like how I want her to do it again but this time with mutual needs. Does she even remember doing it? Does she even remember me?
Now that I think about it, she has a lot of friends back at the village. There are a lot of people who wants her around, who confesses to her, even stalking her. I get to witness all of that and it annoys me everytime.
Becca is a firm and stand on the ground woman. When says 'no', then it's a no. You can't convince her to do something she don't want to.
Suddenly, a knock was heard, it might be another customer. I don't know how long I've been here and staring at the mirror.
"I'll be there in a minute!" I shouted at the knocker and wipe my teary-eyed eyes. I took a few breathe and went to the door to open it, only to wish that I have not.
"Hey. You've been here for so long, everyone's worried." She said and gave me a smile, I just shrug and was about to walk past her but she held my arms causing me to halt. The way she stare at me, trying to meet my eyes is making me uneasy, not in a bad way, but I just don't want her to look at me. I'm not ready yet.
"Are you mad?" She suddenly asked after a moment of silence. I close my eyes, took a deep sigh and gather all my remaining courage to utter, "Why would I be?"
"It's been 5 years. Do you still remember me?" She asked, her eyes exude an emotion I could not comprehend.
Despite being open, kind and friendly. I realize I don't really know how her mind works, her decision process, her thoughts and the way she perceive things and people. That is also why I stick with her in those days because I'm curious about her way of life.
And some other things...
"Why would I forget?" I asked, my sarcasm is slowly arising.
"Look, I'm sorry that I did that. If you want we can forget about it..?" She suggested, not even sure of the suggestion she suggested.
"What did you say?" I asked. Clearly offended.
I've been holding unto that these 5 years and after meeting again that's all she has to say?
"I don't even know what I'm saying or trying to say. Now that you're in front of me I could not remember the words that I wanted to say, all my mouth said is pure rubbish. I don't know what to say to you, I-I just..." she rants, not even sure what she's saying.
I can see the way she's panicking. She's all over the place.
Which is cute..
Stop.
"Let's forget about it." I said after gathering the remaining courage I have. I can see the hint of hurt in her eyes but then vanished as she gave me a wide reluctant smile.
"Should we? Have you ever gave it a thought?" She asked suddenly, "What do you mean?"
"Have you forgiven me about the kiss? You're mad at me because I kissed you, right?" She asked. I close my eyes tightly to hold back my anger.
But no avail. I went nuts. I pull her in and shut the door.
"Do you really not understand? I am not mad about the kiss, Becca. I am mad because you left me hanging. After stealing my first kiss like that you went away the next morning." I said as I glare at her with pure rage in my eyes. I want her to know how angry I am.
In all these years, no answers from the questions that I've had in my head.
None.
"You went away, Becca. Do you understand how painful that was? I don't even know what we are! I couldn't ask you because YOU. WENT. AWAY!" I exclaimed but she remain silent.
Definitely guilty.
"I am sorry for everything. I have to, I need to." She said, pleading for me to understand her but how would I if she's not telling me anything?
"I bet you do." I sarcastically said and was about to walk past her when she grab my waist and hug me tight.
I feel like my skin is burning because of the skin contact.
"Stay for a moment. I've been waiting for this." She whispered and I don't know how she did this but it calmed me down.
I stopped struggling to get out of her grasp. I'm pretty pathetic, I know.
We just stayed silent, hugging each other. Deep breathes, relaxed body, not minding what's happening with the world.
I pull away silently and stare at her.
She's really beautiful.
Still the same brown eyes.
I never realize how much I adore the color brown until I saw her eyes.
I guess, I've been really into her. That I do really adore her.
"I'm going." I said after I snap myself back to reality and left the bathroom.
My head shake in disbelief when I saw what she did outside the bathroom. Still the chaotic one, I see.
She put a signage on the bathroom's door that says, "Occupied. This bathroom is under repair, please use the bathroom upstairs or you may contact the front desk for assistance."
I gather myself and went back to the table like nothing happened.
"What took you so long? Did you find Becca on the way here?" Yoko asked. I just nodded and grab a water for me to drink.
"I'm sorry it took me so long. Shall we eat?" Becca asked as soon as she arrived and sat next to me.
We just ate since we only have a few minutes before out lunch time is over.
Just a usual lunch time with new friends and people whom I met again.
After we eat, we went our opposite ways. I didn't bother to bid Becca goodbye, I just left. I can't handle my feelings if she's near, I just couldn't stay still.
She didn't react or something. She just stare at me as I left the restaurant without giving her attention.
As I made my way to the school, my phone rang signaling an incoming text.
From: unknown number
Drive safely! I'll see you soon!
I furrow my eyebrows and throw my phone to the seat next to me. I just shrug the message off and focus on driving.
From: unknown number
I may have hurt you but that doesn't mean I've always wanted it to be. I wanted to apologize to you, sincerely. Hoping that you'll understand that I've done everything I can to return to you
Upon finish reading, I don't know what came over me but it put a smile on my face.
She really do know her ways.
[End of chapter 2]
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