Love and other maladies of the spirit

Sentimental Sins

In my pursue of i'm not sure anymore what

I lied

To myself, and to myself only

Punished myself, can't recall the reasons

Lived in denial and fear

Until they became cosy home

The only place i ever belong

Hurt more people than i dare to remember

Trying to do right thing

Studied human nature

Lived as a human

Until i understood that i can't be one.

Hit every wall with my head

Got up on my feet 

I mastered falling

You can only fall again if you learn

To never give up

Never had any regrets

Buried them 

Unborn

Forgot when, where, and why

Carried my curse

With smile and pride

And pain, mostly pain.

Lived the best life i knew how.

Choices...

...And consequences.

Make no mistake

I never made excuses

Lost everything i loved and believed in

More then twice

Learned nothing...

apart maybe that human heart has unlimited capacity for two things

love

and pain

Borrowed time with unknown due date

Empty bedrooms

Sleeping diagonally on double bed became my catchphrase 

Need, tolerance and some respect

Are best i was ever offered

Dreams though...

I always liked dreams, daydreaming...

And this remains my cardinal

Sentimental sin