Nobody's going to read this shit anyways so I can be completely honest. Like I could just straight up spill my guts in here. So basically I'm not in college (who cares right?) At least I know my numbers, right!!!! So I actually dropped out of hs but I learned valuable lessons there (like not liking and trusting anybody there). I'm at home rn and completely wasting my life and my precious, precious time. By my sister's standards, I'm a fucking loser and degenerate because I decided not to go to college- at least right now. One important thing about me is that I'm intelligent (only I think I am). Like I used to compete against people who go yo famous private schools. Of course I don't win but it's the thought that counts. I'm always in the honor roll when I was younger. My WHOLE life revolved around studying to the point that I don't have hobbies because of it.
Fast forward to 2024: I should be like Alex from Modern Family right now but since most of my family went babye I became....tired. Like alllllllll the horrendous stuff that I went through suddenly caught up to me. And of course I turned like Bojack Horseman (without the d). It makes me feel ashamed but I don't remember the shame when I'm flat out drunk. Sometimes it makes me depressed when I remember that I disappointed everyone by now. I'm like the beautiful flower that you buy from a local shop and you became disappointed when you realized how much you should do to take care of me. So now I'm Bojack Horsing my way through life. I'd like to blame my mom for my issues but unfortunately I'm an adult now so I only have myself to blame. If you haven't guessed by now, she wasn't able to do her dreams also because of my siblings and I (hence the title). I feel bad for her most of the time and at the same time I want to kill her (just joking guys).
Moral of the story: GO TO COLLEGE FOLKS!!!
