I sleep in a lot. Being independent and relied on by everyone, especially my mom, gets exhausting. "Can you watch your siblings", "Can you help me practice", "Can you help your brother", "Can you make food", "Can you walk to work", "Can you walk home". Yup. I always do. I cant say no anymore. It didnt matter when i did. No matter what im doing, even homework, "Can you come to the store with me?" "Im doing homework" i tell her "i dont care come upstairs youre coming with me" Why couldnt anyone else? They were doing anything. They wonder why i dont want to hangout around them but every time i do they ask me to do this and that. I need downtime. I need to be able to relax on top of my own school work, my own sports. Being reliable is tiring. So i sleep in a lot, having to do my work before bed. Not sleeping some nights.
Am i independent as a result of the neglect or am i neglected as a result of my independence? Its something ive always wondered. Im not really neglected, thats an exaggeration. Its only small things really, my mom forgetting to pick me up, tell me that if i have any money from gifts or small jobs i should be buying my clothes from a younger age, forgetting to tell me suppers ready.
