My Mistake

5.Mile - I am sorry

What wrong,  my cousin Mike ask me. Nothing, I said and focus on our dinner.
I should not be here. Again I bring discomfort to him. I wish he ask me to leave. I look at the food they left. He dont even touch the food after he notice me and my business partner get into the sushi shop. Since this is exclusive place, it's not easy to reserve. They must be waiting for this .

You should know how she behave my grandpa said. Really, I ask him. Yes, she being senile and pretend to be young he said angrily again. No, she is not I said. Grandpa why don't you. NO, my grandpa quickly interupt me. I look at my handsome grandpa and shake my head. So what now, I ask him. I want to buy a present, he suddenly said. For who, I ask. Someone special, I am in debt with him he said slowly.  I look at my grandpa. In debt, I ask him. Yes, that why I cant say anything,  he said again. I am confuse but I just agree with his request. So now we are at the Patek Phillippe . He look so focus. Help me choose, my grandpa suddenly said. I dont think he will like my taste he said.  Choose what you like, he said again. Okay I said.  After a while I choose Patek Philippe Grandmaster Chime. Give me two, my grandpa said. Again I look at him weirdly.  One is for you, he said.  Why, I ask. For accompanying old man like me,  he said.

I can feel his hate. He wish he can leave. But both of us are in official event.  Not once I expected for this opportunity in my life. Who know we will reward as the most influential icon  from our country for our contribution in business, entertainment and tourism.  It's one of the program by our country to influence younger generation to be more proactive and excellent in their respective categories.  He always become the pioneer for many things . That why he was choosed. Me as a economy player, my contribution can be measure with our economy growth. We are from different world but unexpectedly we always meet at a special place.
This is a grand event but I can see he is uncomfortable.  His hand is shaking and sweeting. I think he look at me as a monster. After the ceremony he quickly excuse himself.  I can see he look panic and nervous. Since I am worry I quickly follow him. Bright,  I call him when he nearly fell down. He try to breath and pull off his tie. He look suffocated. I quickly help him. Breath, I said slowly. He slowly getting calm and start breathing.  He suddenly look at me and quickly leave. Bright, I call him but he refuse to stop and with all difficulty he call his manager. And I helplessly only can see him strugle until his manager run to him..

What now, apo ask me . I only can smile and drink. I need to get drunk. Take it easy apo said. I wish, you prevent me harder that time,  I said and look at apo. I dont know why I felt so angry when he keep avoiding and reject my invitation.  I wish apo seriously stop me that night. I wish I dont touch him that night. I wish to stop this pain. But now I cant even complaint when I see how he suffer. He hate me. He hate me so much. Mile, apo said slowly.  I am sorry,  I should stop you, he said slowly and grasp my hand. I only can laugh and continue drinking.
I need to get drunk. I will crazy if I am sober. Then after an hour bible and pete come running to us. What happen, pete ask. He run to bright, but I dont know the details, apo said. I just laugh but I cant stop my tears. Now all my friend look at me quietly. Don't worry, I am okay I said and drink again. It weird. I keep drinking non stop but I cant get drunk.

Grandpa what should I do if I hurt someone badly, I ask my grandpa. Intentionally or not , he ask me. I dont know I said. What do you mean you don't know my grandpa ask. I dont mean to hurt him, I just angry but at the end I hurt him badly I said. I lost control I said. My grandpa calmly look at me. Have you ask for forgiveness, he ask me slowly.  No, I cant. He dont want to see me. He will sick if he see me, I said. What should I do, I ask my grandpa. Dont cry my grandpa said. He slowly wipe my tears. This tears mean you are regreting. I does not matter how much you cry here if it not reach him. Find the way to beg for forgiveness he said and hug me. I really let my self go. If I am this hurt how about him.

Not again , I said and look at my sulky grandpa. What wrong this time, I ask him. Can you believe it. She just leave me here, my grandpa ask me. I think she already offer you before, I said.  Can she at least  offer me twice,  my grandpa said grumpily. She is different now , my grandpa said again. She is not, I said.
So, I ask my grandpa.  I will let her know who is the boss,  my grandpa said and quickly go to the beautiful garden. Grandpa,  I dont think this is right choice, I said worrily.  I know she will come back immediately , grandpa said with smirky face. Oh my god.  This gonna be bad. I try to prevent my grandpa from destroying the flowers.
I don't believe this.  He act like a kid.
Grandpa , please stop I said. Refuse to listen he quickly leave me.

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12.11.24