The life with the sacconejoys....

"Friends"

I felt completely shut out. No of my friends ever talked to me anymore.

I even tried calling Zoé and she didn't answer.

All I did was sitting in my room crying.

Anna visited me and gave me ice cream sometimes nkw and then.

I was ditched by EVERYONE not even The dogs seemed to care about me.

Tomorrow in the morning we're moving to Florida and no of my friends are saying goodbye.

I found a knife in my room.

I pulled it carefully over my arm. A several times I cut over my arm.

After that I cut in a snowflake in my belly.

Then I cut in ugly on my hand.

I then ran to the toilet to wash everything with cold water and to dry my arm off.

I then walked to my room again. I'm so hungry.

I walked downstairs and heard Anna making cupcakes.

"Anna can I get one?" I asked and she shook her head.

"Okay I'll get something else then." I said and she just looked at me.

"Go to your room I'll make you something." Anna said and I felt the tears burning behind my eyes.

I walked to the stairs as I saw Emilia.

"Esa crying." She laughed.

Seriously?

I tried to hug Eduardo but he just laughed and turned around.

I then ran up to my room. As I came in I closed the door.

I  curled up in a ball. I cried. Loudly.

I stood up. I walked over to my 'box' where I had my knife and my... pills.

I grabbed enough pills to kill me.

I heard noises from downstairs.

I'd rather live with my father than this! That would be suicide but I'd be happier if I died.

I put a paper on the floor and placed the tablets on my tongue ready to swallow them when the door opened.

// Sorry about such a bad part. But I'm feeling so bad and I'm kitterly writing while crying so sorry.//