No Control

Style

TW!! Eating Disorder

"is this dyed?" My stylist asks brushing my hair "oh uh no, it's naturally blond" I respond "Oh, I think we should dye it" she responds "Niall's kinda known as the only blondie" I hesitate "sure" I nod, 3 hours later the lady turns my chair around "h-holy shit" I look nothing like myself at all, My hair is dark brown with caramel streaks "Do you like it?" she giggles "I thought you would look better brown" "y-yeah thanks" I take a deep breath, "well we are done here" she smiles "okay thank you" I stand up and walk to the door "and Emma?" I turn around "you might want to think about losing a few pounds" she waves, I stare at her slightly dumbfounded, "I- uh" "you can go now" she says, I close the door to my room and walk over to the mirror, stare at my stomach, I'm not fat right? I guess I could stand to lose a few pounds... 

"are you gonna eat?" Niall asks cheerfully "I'm not really hungry" I shrug, "Can I have your food?" He asks, "sure" I push it towards him, "thanks!" Zayne looks at me weird but goes back to eating 

"tomorrow you will all go over the songs in the album together" Simon anounces "Emma you will be taking some of Niall's solos" I look over at Niall scared he would be angry, he just shrugs. "sorry" I mouth at him, all the boys turn to leave "oh and Emma, I don't think anyone as informed you yet but you are not permited to date or have any kind of romantic relathionship with any of the boys" I nod, I wasn't really expecting to date any of them anyways, 

"that's what makes you beautifullllll" Zayn finishes the song, our production team claps "good job every body" Simon announces "tour starts in a week from tomorrow but so far the sound check sounded amazing everyone" he turns to me "you need to speak to your stylists about your wardrobe" he says "everyone else can go" 

The stylists come in and sit around me, my stylist from earlier starts "we are here to discuss your dietary restrictions" she says "dietary restrictions?" I asks confused "we as a team" she gestures around her to the other stylists "think you would benefit from a" she hesitates "extreme diet before the tour begins" I don't know what to say, I was always a little bit on the lighter side, I was a preemie so as a kid it was harder for me to retain nutrients "we just thought it would be better for you to lose a little weight" she pauses "or a lot" I'm shocked "h-how much?" I ask dumbfounded "before the tour? maybe like 20 pounds? more as the tour progresses" the stylist decides "b-but the tours in 2 weeks" I stutter "what exactly woud I have to do?" I ask "we will give you all the food you're allowed to eat" she starts "and a training schedule for excersise" she leans towards me a bit "and if that doesn't work we have other methods" she assures me "like?" i ask "theres always weight lose drugs" she smiles innocently.

I didn't want to go on a diet, but I couldn't exactly say no. I signed a contract with Simon already, he basically owned me for the next two years. I needed this job, i told myself.

"are you sure you don't want to eat?" Zayn looks suspicous "yeah I had a big lunch" I lie, the team had barely given me anything to eat and I was starving "you're sure?" he asks "yeah" I nod with a smile "I don't really like pizza anyways" I lie again, I love pizza. I desprately want a slice but I already slightly exceted my calorie intake for the day. "I'll have some more" Harry grabs another slice "of course you will" Liam teases, I'm sitting int he lounge with the boys playing monoply "Niall you fucking loosah stop taking all the good places" Louis whines annoyed "You too Hazza" Harry just smirked and rolled the dice before landing on broadway, throwing Louis a smirk. He counts out 8 bills, he handed them to Niall who was the acting banker. "Mhhhm" Louis snorted annoyedly. "hah Niall landed on my property" Liam snorts.