secrets

Guilt

Han waits for a little and wonders whether he should follow him or not. He decides to just follow him but be careful this time. He sees Minho from afar getting into his car and his personal driver drives him away

Han quickly gets on his motorcycle and starts following them but makes sure he is still far enough where it isn't suspicious. Minho gets out of his vehicle and starts walking into his home. Han parks his motorcycle somewhere far and walks his way to the "castle"

Han knows where to sneak in since he's suck out and snuck back in. At this point it was dark and you wouldn't tell Han was there. His hair was more grown out so the guards wouldn't recognize him. He jumped over a fence and went into a door. He went to his old room. He wanted to see how it was, just to find out everything in there was gone. There was nothing in his room anymore, he felt a bit of pain and guilt.

-with minho

He went straight to his room and slammed the door. He entered his bathroom and looked at himself in the mirror and started to cry. He felt awful, he didn't like how Han just did all those things with confidence while he was hurting the whole time. He felt stupid.

He felt so angry he just started to throw whatever was near. He threw everything, and threw a candle at the mirror and the glass gave Minho a cut right below his eye and his hand was bleeding

He began to cry even more and just slowly started to go down and sit on the floor. He felt so angry and sad, he wanted to curse Han out. Why would he kiss him?

He didn't want to have sex with Han in that moment. He wanted the truth he wanted to know why Han left him and never said a word. He didn't know why everything was happening to him.

He didn't want to get up, he wanted to stay there sitting and holding himself. He wanted Han out of his mind.

Eventually he got up and went to his bookshelf and he had a lot of alcohol in a secret drawer below

He grabbed one and poured himself a drink and just sat on his bed. He wanted to forget everything, alcohol was the only thing giving him comfort. He found alcohol being the only "joy" in his life since Han left him.

He drank drink after drink

Han walked in Minhos room, all he sees is Minho drinking. He noticed the bathroom all messed up, He doesn't know what to say or do he just stands there halfway in the door and halfway out the door. Minho hadn't been a big drinker, only a few but he hated alcoholic people.

Minho finally looks up and sees Han standing at his door. He doesn't say anything and just keeps drinking. Nobody says anything, quite frankly there is nothing to say anymore. "Just get out Jisung" He says

"Why should I?" Han replies, "because you literally snuck in here" Minho rolls his eyes after his comment he continues to drink. "Well you sound drunk" Han says getting closer "No shit really?" Minho replied annoyingly

"Just stop Minho" Han says and try's to grab his drink "Get the fuck away from me" Minho says standing up and pushing Han away, "your drunk Minho, just give it" Han says getting up as well "Why do you care? You're not my boyfriend anymore!" Minho replies

Han knows Minho is right and he shouldn't care but he still does. "Just leave me alone, you've done it before so it should be easy." He says bluntly

"I didn't want to leave you" He says while looking at his eyes. Even though he knew he was drunk he didn't care. Minho laughs at him, and just pours himself another drink

Minho was about to drink again but Han took it away
"Hey!" He says, he wanted his drink. He didn't want to deal with this conversation sober. "I can't talk to you if you're drunk." He says straightforwardly "I have nothing more to say to you" Minho says "Oh, you want an official break up? Okay! We are officiallyyyy over" He says getting the whole bottle instead

Han is so angry at Minho, all he can think about is his drink. He wants to have a normal conversation. "Now get the fuck out of my room! I broke up with you now officially, that's what you wanted right?" Minho scoffs, "No, it's not what I wanted. I never wanted any of this." Han replies, "just give me the bottle and we can talk, I can tell you the truth and everything." Han says desperately, he tries to take the bottle away...

Minho loses it.

He throws his bottle to the ground making glass go everywhere. "FINE. HERE YOU GO." He screams out "You can have my bottle now!" He says loudly with a blank expression.

Han is actually scared of Minho at this moment. He stands there in shock. "What is wrong with you-" he tries to speak until, "YOU. You are what's wrong, you made me like this. You keep coming back as if nothing happened? You left me all alone, and you know the only thing that kept me comfort? A fucking bottle of alcohol." Han doesn't recognize Minho at all.

"I just don't recognize you anymore. I don't know who you are." Han states

"Yeah? How could you? You left me for 2 years, of course I'm going to change." Minho stays silent after his comment, he sits down on his bed

"FUCK MINHO I KNOW." Han screams out. He doesn't care anymore "I FEEL GUILTY FOR EVERYTHING!!" Minho just stares at Han while he screams. "IM SORRY. OKAY? IM SORRY." Han says loudly and Minho is just sitting there not knowing how to reply

"Just listen to me and hear me out." Han says getting on his knees and grabbing Minhos hands.

"I can't." Minho says, Han just looks disappointed.

"Don't you understand? I'm not okay. How are you still here. Look at my whole room. My bathroom is all messed up, there is glass everywhere, I'm drunk. Why would you want to talk?" Minho says staring directly at Han "because no matter how crazy you get, I'll always love you, and I want to talk it out this time." Han says looking up. "I don't care about the mess, I don't care that you yelled at me or broke glass everywhere, I care about you nothing else." Han says while holding Minhos hand

Han is still scared that Minho is going to lash out, but in the moment he doesn't care anymore. He is still in shock with everything and maybe that's why he is saying all this stuff but he doesn't care.

"I know I caused this pain, I want to fix it. Please?" He asks, he gets up and hugs Minho.

Minho hesitates but hugs him back

"I'm staying for real this time. I'm sorry" Han says to Minho. He cries in Han's arms, he can't hold it anymore. "I'm so sorry Minho."

Minho pushes him away "I don't think that's enough for the pain you've cause me."

A/N
Sorry it has been taking so long to upload these chapters for "Secrets". I've been rewriting my last story that I wrote and it's taking a lot of my time. lwk my toxic ex is the inspiration for this chapter, not like the things that they are saying but the stalking and breaking glass and alcoholism is def an inspiration from him 😐🎀

(He's trying to come back after the abuse he did to me, like bro 😭, that's also why I've been M.I.A)