She's been sitting here for what seems like hours. She can barely breathe let alone move. It's hard enough realizing you like girls. It's even harder to admit you are in love with your best friend........
Hope is hanging out by the lake on a sunny summer day. She loves this weather. She's been so on edge lately, constantly worrying that someone will figure her out. Worried that her parents will find out. Worried that her friends will notice. Or somebody will see her stare at some random hot girl and and realize she's not just checking out the girls cute jeans. What would everyone think if they knew she just wanted to see what was under those jeans?
This is all she can think about lately. She fears being shunned or cast aside and this scares her more than anything. Hope is so lost in thought she doesn't even notice when her best friend sits down beside her. She's lying on her back with her eyes closed taking a much needed rest from swimming. She jumps when she feels a warm hand touch her forearm.
"Jesus! You scared the crap out of me Josie!" Unable to contain herself Josie bursts out laughing at her unamused friend.
"I'm sorry Hope, I didn't mean to scare you. I was just bored and your Mom said I could find you here."
Relaxing a bit, Hope is glad it's Josie who came to find her. Recently she's been thinking about her best friend more than she probably should.
At first she chalked it up to how little she's seen her friend lately. But it doesn't explain the jealousy she feels when the other girl brings up her new boyfriend.
"So Landon asked me to hang out with him today." Hope puts on the best smile she can muster.
"I'm happy for you Josie, but why are you here with me then?" The brunette looks at her friend like she doesn't understand the question.
"Wow Hope, way to make a girl feel wanted. You ever think that maybe I just missed your face?" The shorter shoves Josie's shoulder.
"You're a dork Josie, but I missed your face too."
Josie leans back and her elbow touches Hope's. She feels her body stiffen and she tries to act normal, but Josie's body being so close to her is impossible to ignore. Is this normal? To feel so aroused from a simple touch from you best friend? Hope wonders, but then again she's never felt this way around Lizzie or Maya.
This is what she was afraid of, falling flat on her face for one of her best friends. How awkward is this going to be?
" Hope, what's wrong? You look like you're about to puke all over me." Josie sits up and Hope is relieved and saddened by the lack of contact her body was relishing in.
" I'm fine, just getting cold sitting here." Josie sits up and looks at her concerned.
"You want my sweater? I'm getting kinda hot out here." Hope hides her smirk. All she can think about is the irony of the situation. Josie is in fact setting her soul on fire at this moment.
What is she gonna think if she finds out Hope's secret? Will she lose her friend forever because she's some hormonal gay teenager who can't keep her mind in check?
This is gonna be trickier to navigate than she thought.
