Alluring the Shadows ✓

३. तृतीय : (three)

" hum naa mere tu hai to ,
Meri saansen chlein ,
Bta de kaise mai jiyunga tere bina ??"

(Humnava )

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I still remember that day when my feelings got messed up ,

my heartbeat got faster ,

the mess my mind was drown into ,

now again came back to me to shatter.

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Flashback_ ( at the ground )

I was having a chat with my friend on stairs of aur school's ground ,

it was a function that day when I suddenly saw one of my classmate who got transferred to the other school years back ( I didn't mentioned her as a friend ,

cause I never felt that and my friends new that my sense isn't well with her ).

She came to our side and seeing her smile I could literally see the eager face to just cry.

She then came to one of my friend who was just sitting beside me and starring her ,

she gazed at me and I nodded ( we felt something isn't right with her).

She hugged my friend with all her might and started to cry ...

Then she told everything happening with her to my friend and I was sitting back their and moved aside to let hr sit beside my friend.

The day went....

When I came back home ( or house I mean.. :) ) ,

I got freshen up and took my feet to the bed .

My thoughts were like tangled in my mind that scene of then hugging each other and she crying..

And I sensed after many years that yeah I do need a friend who can confront me and I can too.. whom I can hug , cry , roam.. and can do a lot I want.

And I know how for weeks I stayed offline on inta , snap and all talking with no one and thinking about it .. continued

Ended...
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{Back to shuchi on her couch._}

" And for the first time after years , I felt loneliness and need on someone! " said with sigh.

" I still remember when I was in lower kinder garden I used to think how to spend my life with my bestie and her I'm now. " talking to myself

" All those wars in my heart how felt me clenched. That pain I still can feel . Those nights , those thoughts have still remained a scar in my heart . "

" I wish my younger child would be loved the way it wanted to and could trust the person she loved"

Said looking at the sky , " Dearest Shiv ji ( a hindu god ) , I know you did all this to make me strong..."

" But still... " with a sigh

" Wasn't she a child at that time !?? "

" Did she deserved all this??"

" What sins had she done ,that made her child looking like a living hell ? "

" Didn't u got any mercy on her??

"First her grandma when she didn't even knew that what's death.
And then her bestfriend where she got to know how does a heartbreak felt while she was still stuck into finding the meaning of bond"

" Do you loved her ?? Like she did ?? "

" You did it to her like everyone else , you broke her trust .. why?? " And started crying.

" And yeah you were still not fulfilled with that mess and you got her into another thing "

" Just a thought about it get's my blood boiled "

" Hh-hoow could you do this to her shiv ji , tell me. "

Thinking about my past and all clenched my heart , fists and punched the wall .

All that past is still bothering me in present not because I didn't had any other things but , still somewhere I wanted that child me to be happy in her times .

And yeah all those broken peices were still shattered in my heart and I was still wasn't able to fix them .

But this weather reminded me how I loved rain and used to think that it's understanding me and how I used to cry behind my bed to not let my parents know about it.

I then took a sigh

Sip my tea.
[ The time was 5: 12 a.m.]

I hurriedly went to my bathroom , got freshen up , took shower packed my bag and stood my arms on my kitchen's cabinet thinking about what to eat .

I took out a packet of maggie and made it .

And it was time for my Kathak classes..

( Kathak is a type of dance from northern India and is one of the classical dance or natya shashtra ,

The kathakar or the person who do kathak came from word ' katha ' means story and ' kar ' means teller signifies ' story - teller ',

They tells the story with their movements and expressions on the face ,

in this the dancer Moves theirselves according to the rythem of the running or the drums and sometimes mimic the rythem of drums uth their feet )

And stood cleaned the dishes ,
took my bag , packed my dress , which I used to go with.. mu anarkali suit of red colour with golden borders giving a devine look.

Ook keys of my home , put the shoes , watch
and left home..

It was early so I used to go there by walking as it was near.

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How's it !?

A few more para then I'll be heading to the male's lead.

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Thanks for reading...🌹

Here I expressed the female lead a bit more for the upcoming chapters.
Word count 883)