My WildFlower ~ jayules

sweet girl -21

friday
📍covey household
8:00 am

~ jayden pov

i don't usually get up this early on fridays but my mom asked me to come downstairs to talk to her. i know she's disappointed in me we haven't talked at all since i hit katie. she told me to go to my room and i did. i was sleeping with mj until she woke me up and told me she had to go home.

so then i took her home at like 12 midnight and i came back and everybody was sleep. i just went back to sleep after that. i don't know if mj's dad is home or not. i had asked her if he was there and she didn't wanna answer my question she just kept telling me she'll be ok.

i don't like leaving her alone anymore. i feel bad when i do. because i know she needs someone to be there for her right now. her sisters aren't available to her and her dad works all the time. i just worry about her mental health sometimes. it doesn't look healthy the way she's living at the moment.

but on a bigger note jules is mad at me. like i think she's disappointed that i hit her mom. i never did that before. i never disrespected her family. or her. i love them. but i just... i lost it. when i saw how her mom was affecting her i got overprotective and i couldn't control my anger anymore.

but jules knows this. she knows. i've never hit her unless we were playing and if i hurt her on accident i always would hold her after and apologize. but her mom really hurt her. and i was just trying to protect her. hayley's upset with me too. brady went to his campus but he's coming back later today. and livy she's surprised i hit her mom. she's the only one not mad at me for it.

i'm going downstairs though right now. i'm in my pjs i haven't even got ready for school yet. i just wanna see what my mom has to say. i get downstairs and see her in the dining room so i walk in. i grab my energy drink on the way in tho.

we make eye contact, "sit" she says

i pull out a chair from the table and sit directly in front of her. it's silence, "ok.. i'm gonna ask you once and one time only. and be honest." mom says

she's making me nervous. i respect and love my mom to death. and i hate getting in trouble with her. i've had my outbursts but i've always cried to her apologizing afterwards. i always feel guilty of everything. i'm fidgeting with my drink, "ok?" i say gently

she's looking me in the eyes, "jayde, what's been going on lately with you?" mom asks

i hesitate and think to myself, "i don't really wanna talk about it" i say gently

"you don't have a choice this time because whatever it is has got you in trouble so you have to tell me right now." mom says in a serious tone.

i smack my lips and sigh, "mom it's just.. it's just about girls." i say

"who or what has you acting like this and why?" she asks

if i tell her about my feelings about mj and jules she'll literally get even more mad at me and i don't need that. i swallow, "nothing.. ok?" i say

she sighs deeply, "jayden isabel bartels. what made you punch katie last night?" she asks calmly.

she's about to get mad, "mom you saw how she was making jules cry i don't like when people make her upset-" i say until she cut me off

"that doesn't make it ok for you to punch someone!" mom shouts

i stay quiet, "im serious jayden. this is not how i raised you to be. you've been acting out all year so far. and i don't like it one bit. you need to be focused on school and sports and pick what college you're going to. i am extremely disappointed in you. and i don't ever get disappointed in you. but you've made me now. get your shit together." mom says in a serious tone