[Bakit ka wala sa office mo?] Mom called.
I was in the kitchen table, eating cereal.
"Wala naman nang gagawin, waste of time," I said.
[May sasabihin sana ako sa 'yo, kung okay lang ikaw yung mag-architect para sa bagong branch ng Calvin na itatayo.]
Calvin? Convenient store 'yon ng parents ni Stephen. Ayaw ko nga.
"Bakit?"
[Kasi nga, 'di ba? Noong nag-summa cum laude ka sa La Salle, proud na proud sa 'yo sina tito Fidel at tita Arneel mo? Gusto ka nilang kuhaning architect para sa susunod nilang branch.]
They were our family friend. Parang nakaka-guilty namang humindi, proud nga pala sila tito't tita noon. May branch na rin namang hinahandle si Stephen, 'di ba?
"Sige."
[Sure ka?]
"Oo, bakit?"
[Wala, nagulat lang ako, um-oo ka, pero just to remind you para hindi ka na magulat, I think ine-expect mo na rin naman 'to, si Stephen yung magiging C.E.O. doon.]
"Bakit? Hindi ba may mga nauna ng branch? Bakit hindi agad siya do'n?"
[Hindi ba't nag-masteral pa siya sa Canada at kakatapos niya lang sa doctorate niya? Tapos nag-work rin siya doon since may branch naman doon ang Calvin, magiging C.E.O. pa lang siya ngayon.]
"'A, oo nga pala," I nodded.
[Kailan ka ba daw available para pag-usapan yung building?]
"Bukas, pwede."
[Anong oras?]
"Kung anong oras sila available."
[Siguro, after lunch para hindi masyadong maaga, sa meeting room ng F.C.]
F.C. meant 'Fernando Construction.' The building that my parents owned, located in the Bonifacio Global City.
"Sige."
[Sige, bye na, 'nak, good luck.]
"Bye, ma, love you."
[Love you more, 'nak] she ended the call.
I went to the sink and washed the bowl before brushing my teeth and going back to my room.
I did nothing the whole day but eat and scroll through my cellular telephone while rotting out of boredom, then I slept.
I woke up in the night and applied an ice cube on my face before dressing up to go to a restaurant for dinner. I didn't want to cook for dinner, I usually ate at a restaurant.
"2 pieces of steak and additional rice, and a red wine please, thank you."
1 piece of steak and a few rice weren't enough for my stomach.
The wine was initially served, and the glass was already voided before I even got my steak, so I ordered a red wine again.
After a few crumbs at the plate were eaten, I straightly drank my glass of wine before paying my check and going out of the restaurant.
I roamed around the Bonifacio Global City before going back to my unit.
As a teenage girl, I always wandered around here, but now that I'm 27 years old, I'm always busy, so I'd rather sleep than to waste my energy here, but I just miss it now that I have nothing to do, so I tried again. I couldn't even appreciate BGC or other places the same way, I just became nonchalant with everything. I just live with the memories, not with the present. Memories of him, with him, memories when I wasn't knowing him yet, and the visions of him that I had made, but I tried not to, so I tried distractions, and I tried insulting him. I'm nonchalant with everything, but it's different when it's him.
