Flashback 🥱🥱
Thulir's POV
I looked at the mess around me all the books opened and spread on the floor and I was sitting in the middle with my laptop and trying to find the perfect answer for every possible question they would ask me in my final presentation......
I'm aware that I'm extremely stressed and anxious, even though I'm familiar with everything I've done for this thesis. Yet, I can't help but panic. I've completed my final draft and sent it to my guide for the umpteenth time for confirmation, as he highlighted each mistake individually rather than all at once.
Why are all the guides the same????
I signed and reread my thesis again to find out if I missed anything I want to find that out before he sends me a reply mail pointing out very minute mistake........My phone pinged with a notification; it was from Thuyavan, indicating that he was on his way back home.
That's good thing because I know Thalir wouldn't have slept yet and would have waiting for him to comeback.....she can sleep alone but she would be scared if she by chance wake up in middle of night and find her alone and have to walk out of the room she would get panic attacks.....even though she keeps everything beside her before sleeping and won't wake up in middle often nowadays but that thing never left her...I hope she soon try to come out of her fear....someday she have to alone all by herself and she have to survive that phase...hmmm
Actually She began reading books to pass the time until he returned home, as he often came back late from playing in various local tournaments and betting matches.....considering that my ammu owns a whole library in our home and my siblings have access to it but me just to tease me they would go to library and gradually they became bookworms just like my ammu....
It's not that I dislike reading books. it's just that I'm not permitted to access my ammu's library or her collection. Therefore, I have to purchase them myself, and I am too lazy to buy fiction books unless they are for my studies. I do read fiction online, but very rarely, as my PhD work requires me to read many more books on my specific topic and related areas....
The thought is somewhat scaring me these days, my siblings are growing up. Eventually, they will find others to share their lives with, and I may no longer be the first person they turn to, the last one they talk to before bed, or the one they recount their daily events to, as a child does with their mother...
I know I am more of a strict mother to them over a elder sister....I do understand this is meant to happen and I have to accept the change soon and train my mind to let go of them........I don't have to play the over protective and strict sister role to them anymore...
Just then my phone ringed...
its Thalir...See speaking of the kutty sathan....I picked up the call before I say hello I heard her dragging voice...
"AAaakkkkaaaaaaaa"
Just a moment ago, I considered being lenient with them, but it seems that was a poor decision. I'll just be myself, as always.
"Solu Thalir..."
"Did you ate anything akka?"
she enquired me sweetly.............okay danger light...
"No Thalir I am finalizing my Thesis...I would make something soon and will have it....did you had your dinner?"
"Akka, I understand your determination to earn the 'Dr.' title with your PhD, but remember, you need to be alive to achieve it. Skipping meals won't help. Consider our family, Akka. What would we do? Think about your sister and how she'd feel if she lost you. And Athiyan... opps I should not call him by his name la choorryyyy, I mean, think about 'mams', he's innocent in all this."
