The Singer and The Drummer

Finding Out The Hard Way

Idk if I already did this buuuut thanks @Squeakers101 for commenting on my story, and I hope you like this next part!!! Really hurts you right in the feels :c

Ronnie's POV
I couldn't be happier than I was right now. It's been a few weeks, since Ryan and I have gotten together, and it couldn't be any better. We haven't had sex yet though, I've tried to engage in it but he just kind of brushed me off. It made me feel bad. Did he not want to have sex with me because he possibly didn't want me in that way? Maybe he didn't want to because of everyone I've been with? I don't know, but I was going to get to the bottom of it. It unsettled me, and I wanted to know if something was wrong with Ryan, and I had to figure it out to put my mind to rest.

We just finished our last set of the tour yesterday, and today we were going back home. Ryan was going to live with me now; we've already gotten a moving service and a couple of friends to get everything from Ryan's into my home in Hollywood, California a week ago, so everything was already fixed. So here we were, sitting in my expensive, black Hummer with me driving and my love sitting beside me, watching the city turn to open road as we neared my large home. I smiled as he turned his head to watch the birds fly in the sky until the sky was covered by trees. He let out a soft sigh full of contentment as we drove into the long driveway, and I stopped the car and turned it off.

About ten minutes later...
We were inside, fixing Ryan's clothes into my large closet. "God, Ryan, you've got a shitload of clothes.", I said, smiling at him as we finished hanging everything up. He smiled back and sat down on the large bed, laying back and stretching. I watched him closely, my eyes falling over his form greedily. Yup, all that's mine.

I walked over to him and sat down beside Ryan, deciding to ask him about sex before we started anything and I was let down again.

"Ryan, can I ask you something?", I asked, and he looked up at me with a sweet smile. "Of course, Ronnie, you can ask me anything.", Ryan replied, and I let out a deep sigh before speaking. "Why won't you have sex with me? Do you...do you not like me in that way?", Ronnie asked hesitantly, and Ryan looked shocked and almost as if he was going to be sick.

Ryan's POV
No, no, no, I'm going to have to tell him and he'll know.

"Of course I want to have sex with you Ronnie!", I said quickly, shocked, but I guess that's how I made him feel with dodging his actions and brushing him off. "It's just...it...", I sighed. Time to rip the bandaid off. I stood and pulled my skinny jeans off carefully, hissing in pain when my hands brushed some of my fresh cuts, and pulled the jeans off, throwing them in the floor, then pulled my boxers up so he could see the three years worth of cuts on my thighs. I turned around and closed my eyes so I couldn't see his most likely disgusted expression. But all I heard was a loud gasp, and a shaky breath. A few moments passed and I opened my eyes, and what I saw shocked me. Ronnie was crying. There were tears in his beautiful brown eyes. "Ryan...why?", he asked shakily, and I sighed. "Why do you think? It's so obvious Ronnie. I'm ugly and I'm fat. My skin's too pale, I have too much fat on my body, but the worst part is my face. I don't see how you can even look at me.", I replied truthfully. I could name a million things wrong with me, but before I could say anymore Ronnie stood up and hugged me tightly, and I immediately wrapped my thin arms around him. I could hear him sniffle and feel him shaking, then felt tear drops fall onto my neck as he spoke. "But Ryan...no, baby, you're not. You're beautiful.", I shook my head slightly and he pulled back so he could look at me. Ronnie laid his hands on my face gently, and made me look at him. "No Ryan, listen to me. You're the most beautiful person I've ever seen in my life. You're not ugly, you're not fat, and your pale skin is beautiful. Whenever it's night, and the moon is out, it looks absolutely radiant.", he smiled through his tears and I could feel some of my own trickling down my cheeks now. Ronnie gently wiped them away with his thumbs and continued. "Your smile lights up my day, and your eyes; I could stare at them forever. But the outside isn't the only thing that counts. You're also beautiful on the inside, your personality. You're always here for everyone, especially me, and that's not all. You even take care of Willow when she's here, you play with her, and she loves you too.", Ronnie's smile widened and I let out a ragged sob and he pulled me back into a tight hug. "It's okay, Ryan...", he sighed softly, kissing my neck gently. "We'll get through this. I love you.", Ronnie smiled against my neck and I let out another sob.

A new beginning, right?