Mental maturity

Chapter 2: night time comforts

Todorokis pov:

The school bell rings. the whole deku squad and I walked to our class. As Mr Aizawa teaches I wasn't paying attention I was too busy watching midoriya excitedly scribble notes onto his notebook. Getting into a trance every time he muttered under his breath all the important information. I wish my name was the one he was muttering. "******** . . . .  ******ki . . .  ****roki . . . . . Todoroki!" I glanced up to realize Mr Aizawa was calling my name "pay attention" he muttered in annoyance "yes sir sorry sir" *I muttered mindlessly. The bell rang, me and the squad headed to our lunch table. Iida wasn't here because he was still and ochako said she wasn't feeling well this morning so it was just me midoriya and Tsu. I heard midoriya and Tsu talking about crushes. Midoriya started to get flustered. "Well they go to this school" is how he started out. My heart fluttered as I listened, as he was drawing on my arm. It was a new thing we did. "Well i like their height-" when he mentioned their height I started getting self conscious of mine "-ok I like this girl. . . . . It's ochako san" all I could think was "he likes a girl, he likes a girl, he likes a girl, and I'm not a girl" I felt my heart sink. "We all saw it coming kero" Tsu said already knowing who it was. "Yeah deku we all knew you were head over heels for her from day one" I stated blankly, it felt like needles to the heart.

~Time skip~

I skipped dinner not feeling like eating. I started at myself in the mirror. "Maybe he doesn't like my eyes? Or maybe my scar?" I said staring self consciously about my body and looks. I sneak out my window to go to a nearby store. I started looking at concealer and foundations to see if I could find a match. "Excuse me?" I heard a female voice say and I quickly turned around only to realize it was a worker "can I interest you in our new collection of makeup?" She asked trying to sell out her makeup kits "no thanks" I said politely. I got out of there quickly. Walking the quiet nights looking down on my phone before bumping into someone."sorry I wasn't paying attention- deku?" I was shocked to see the greenette out and about this late "oh hey Todoroki! I was just walking around for some fresh air. What are you doing out here?" He asked I composed myself "oh uh I was walking to clear my head and just stopped by the local store" I said "what did you get?" He questioned as he tried to look in the bag "just stuff for my sister" I said hiding my embarrassment. I don't know why I was hiding it when I planned on using it for tomorrow. "So you and ochako? are thing now?" I asked ignoring the sinking feeling in my stomach already knowing his answer. "Oh no" he replied with a laugh. "Wait what?" I asked confused and baffled expecting him to say yes him and ochako were a thing "I don't like her I just said that because truth is I'm not into girls" he said with a nervous chuckle "wait, why didn't you just say that?" I asked. "I was afraid how the group reacted, why didn't you tell the group your gay either" he asked. It was a fair question but how did he know. "same reason you didn't. But how did you know? I've never told anyone" I said confused. "Well to put it quite simply you've never showed interest in any girl and at first I thought maybe you just didn't like anyone at this school but then I realized if I just looked at you close enough. It was quite obvious you were into boys. How you looked straight at your locker in changing rooms while the guys exchanged conversations. How you got nervous around guys but never around girls" he said it like it was the same as saying the sky is blue. "Was I that obvious?" I said with a nervous chuckle avoiding eye contact. Questioning why I was just so. . . . Awkward.

"Well no not really but as the saying does takes one to know one." He said flatly "hey I can help you carry your bags to your place" he said with his usual stupid charming smile. "Thanks but no thanks I don't want to go home quiet yet" I smiled. "Well I'll carry it anyways until you get home. You know buddy system since there are still villains out here on the loose" he smiled as he took the bag form my hand his hand caressing mine in the process. I get sparks fly, I felt my heart flutter and felt butterflies in my stomach. I started to think to myself "I wonder if he felt it too? Don't be silly why would "He" have feelings for someone like you? I mean come on look at you." I shake the negative thoughts outside of my head.

We both walked around the city for 2 hours
Before deciding to go back to my place "I think we should get you home. Come on let's go" he said giving me a smile leading me back home. I lead him up to my rooftop "so uh why don't you just go inside?" He asked placing his arm round my shoulder "I can't sleep so I like to stay up and watch the sunrise"