𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐑 𝐃𝐎𝐂𝐓𝐎𝐑 (𝟏𝟖+)

(𝟏𝟐) 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐋𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐠𝐧𝐚

𝓐𝓷𝔂𝓪'𝓼 𝓸𝓾𝓽𝓯𝓲𝓽 ⬆

I shut the door in Connor's face and went directly to the bed.

Pulling the covers over my body I laid down on my side, facing the windows.

The sun was rising, guess I needed to come out of it and get back to work.

I had only two days before my promotion. After two days, I could take a break but not yet.

I would crash two days after. Right now, I needed to collect all my strength and get back to work.

I just didn't want to feel anything.

I will let myself feel after two days.

That's all.

I needed to forget about the pain in my body, heart and soul.

I needed time to process this, time I didn't have.

After two days.

I suddenly became aware of the tears streaming down my face as I tasted salt.

Why won't they stop?

I had sex with William everyday, why was it that, moments ago it felt horrifying?

I tried to stop him, I shouted the safe word "purple" twice but it felt as if didn't even listen to me.

As if he was under some evil possession....

STOP ANYA. STOP

I needed to stop thinking about it. Nothing good would ever come out of it.

I just needed a pain killer.

Everything in my body ached, my ribs, my thighs, the space between my thighs, my back and even my head.

I don't want to go to work today. I just want to stay in my bed and do nothing.

But I couldn't.

Not when my one mistake could topple my future plans.

Not today.

"Anya..... " I was vaguely aware that William was speaking to me but I didn't care.

My mind couldn't register what he said. My heart was aching in my chest.