The Boy She Drew

6.

Friday. 

Party.

Tears.

Blake.

Hot.

Lips.

Happiness.

GOD DAMN IT.

I can't focus on anything.

Dear diary. 

I'm so sorry I haven't written since seventh grade, but now I need somewhere to put my thoughts before I go mentally ill. Seriously, my head is about to explode. Anyways..

It's been two days since I cried in front of and kissed the hottest boy I've ever seen, or drawn. 
It's also been two days since I talked to the hottest boy I've ever seen/drawn.

Two whole days of nothing. No calls, no texts, no nothing. He is driving me crazy. 

I know that I stand no chance -I mean, he is VERY hot. And I'm..well..average. But we kissed -in the friggin' moonlight. As if we were in some magic romance movie. More like a tragic romance, because of Mike. He stole my first kiss, how rude. I was saving that kiss for someone special, like Blake, but no. Mike just had to screw up everything.

I have a hard time believing it even happened, it just too clichè with the whole ' two teenagers kissing in the moonlight' thing. Maybe I dreamed it? 

No. I know it happened. It was magical, but it was real. The most real I've ever felt to be honest. I try my best not to think too much about it. I mean, what if he hasn't contacted me because he isn't really interested? That's probably why. And I shouldn't be obsessing about it if he's only here to break my heart. But I really can't think about anything else than his soft warm lips... I need to get some sleep now. It's past midnight and I have school tomorrow, where I'll see Blake. I'm nervous.

 I'll write too you soon.

- xoxo Lèa.

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"Beep Beep Beep!" 

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Ugh what now?
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"Beep Beep Beep!" 

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I pressed my eyes together and wanted to shelter my ears from the loud noise.

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"Beep Beep Beep!"

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 I angrily picked up my phone, pressed it to my right ear and yelled:

"I'm trying to fucking sleep, It's in the middle of the night! You better be chased by bears or at least dying, to even dear call me this late!! What the hell do you want motherfucker?!" 

I tried to calm my breath as I waited for an answer.

Nothing..

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"BEEP BEEP BEEP!"

The phone vibrated and rang directly into my ear. I threw it on the floor out of shock. 

I sat there in silence as I slowly realized that there was no one calling me, it was my alarm. I picked up my phone from the wooden floor and checked the time.

Holy shit. I'm late.

I got dressed quickly and ran downstairs. My brother stared at my sad attempt at putting on shoes and eating at the same time.  He sighed and then yelled from across the room

 "Could you stop being so god damn noisy Lèa? Don't bother trying to get to the train in time,  I'm driving to school now, I'll give you a ride." 

My heroic brother ignored my thank yous and praising on our way to the car. We sat in the car, with no music on, because we were both tired and neither of us particularly wanted to go to school. Sitting there sharing the silence we were both lost in our thoughts when I -as stupid as I am- blurted out; "thank you." He turned his head and looked at me with a questioning expression. "I mean for.. saving me on Friday." He quickly turned his head to the road again, I could see the unwanted baby-pink blush slowly appear on his cheeks and neck. He coughed and his eyes flickered around on the road and down on his hands, obviously uncomfortable. "Ey, no problem L. I gotta look out for my baby sister ya' know." I smiled, slightly annoyed that he had called me both L and his baby sister, but I know that it's his way of making things less awkward.

 "Yeah, I don't know what made Mike do that, I mean he hasn't talked to me in a while. I know he was drunk but I seriously thought he was over me a long time ago." 

Dan looked like he was concentrating very much on the road, just to have somewhere to look. He made a turn before he answered. "So did I. I don't know why he suddenly wanted you so badly, one second he was all over some chick and then he talked to that new kid and next thing I know he's stealing kisses from my lill' sis." 

"Wait, what did you say? Was he talking to Blake before he walked over to me?"
I snapped back quickly, before he could set his mind on other things.

"Yeah, that new kid in your..chemistry class? Is his name Blake? He got rad clothing, man." 

I  didn't answer. Blake had somehow made Mike want me? or? What on earth was going on here? Had they talked about me? In that case, what had they been saying? 

I  made up my mind on the few blocks left to school, I have to confront Blake about this. No matter how he reacts, I have nothing to loose, I've already cried in front of him and kissed him.

We stepped out of the car and I instantly searched for Blake Grimm.

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I'm so so so so so so sorry I know I'm many weeks past when I should have uploaded this. 
But here it is, I hope you enjoyed it. 0:3

Love, 
-M