At first I was afraid I was petrified Thinking I could live without you by my side And after spending nights Thinking how you did me wrong I grew strong And I learned how to get along - -
When me and Briar split I was so scared to even be around other girls and spent most of my time either crying, working or drinking, I'd drink at home in bed or at the bars and clubs and this would go on for hours sometimes most the night when usually I'd be asleep curled up with briar or even Monroe. However after a few months of this I decided fuck it she's clearly with another guy who is her person now so it's high time I started dating again. I looked in the wrong places but I was having one night stands and hook ups and that helped me regain my strength and have intimacy which it turned out I was craving.
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Now you're back From outer space And I find you here With that sad look upon your face I should've changed that stupid lock Or made you leave your key If I'd've known for a second You'd be back to bother me - - (Yes realistically Trevor and Jordan's Wedding was a year after he met Emily but for order of the lyrics she isn't going to be mentioned quite yet)
Today is Trevor and Jordan's wedding, the cast wedding, it's gonna be weird as I have to see Briar for the first time since we split
I'm now just sat in my seat at the wedding ready for it for it to start, I came from Burlington and the weddings in Niagra so I made sure I was definitely early. Briar strolls in and sits down, I decide now is a good time to have a cigar, yes I smoke, so I go out and when I go back in she's moved, she moved to the seat beside where I put my blazer I had took off when I went for the cigar. I sit, don't wanna cause drama today after all, and we look at each other. She looks upset so I go to question her but before I can she butts in and says "a few years ago fans would have expected this to be us"
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Go on, go, walk out the door Turn around now You're not welcome anymore You're the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye Think I'd crumble? You think I'd lay down and die? - - Oh yeah Briar I totally didn't expect that .... I m not the one who Litterly thought it too...wait I am, I just turn back to her after a few beats and say straight out " yeah well you broke up with me so ended that potential from happening, just don't speak to me yeah. I don't want drama today. Only reason you can talk to me is if you get triggered at any point coz that's fucking medical and I care about that side still, otherwise shut the fuck up" I don't tell her that I felt very close to my death bed when I was single but neither does she know I even have a relationship anyway, I'm not dead I am here loving. - -
No, not I, I will survive Long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive I've got my life to live And all my love to give and I will survive I, I, I will survive - - I get my blazer back on and take my phone out and put it on the table and let it light up fully knowing my lock-screen will flash up, you see for today I made my lock-screen a photo of me and my beautiful Emily just so if any one asks if I have a girlfriend I can be like yes her names Emily and this is her, then show my phone.
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I fully am aware Briar will see the photo right now but I want her to, I wanna spite her with the girl I now love, yes I'm at a wedding but briar caused this herself when she went off to that damned Colin. Emily is helping me survive
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It took all my strength not to fall apart Trying with all my might to mend my broken heart I spent so many nights feeling sorry for myself How I cried But now I hold my head up high - -
(Small time jump to when they were filming the cbbc tns 10 promo)
Oh god that was so awkward, me and Briar had to record a reaction to Hood Rose and the pep talk prior to it
She spoke over THAT line but I still saw it being said and I was instantly awkward, I mean that line inspired the line in The Love We Had after all right. After it I was emotional having seen Noah so me crying over Richelle so Briar, I ran out and sat in my car and blasted Oh Sweet Mandy and Growing Old With You while crying. I was instantly thrown back to when we broke up. However upon hearing myself singing the ring line in Growing I smile and remind myself nope I'm strong and I head back in and wash my face then go back to the group.
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And you see me, somebody new I'm not that lonely little person Still in love with you Now you come droppin' in Expectin' me to be free Now I'm saving my lovin' For someone who's loving me - - Noah and Isaac know me almost as well as Briar does and they check in on me and I say "ok fine yes I was a but broke after seeing Hood Rose however I'm fine since I had a moment to myself where as I blasted my ears out with the love songs I wrote my fucking perfect girlfriend aka the love of my life. I'm not that guy who played Noah I'm that scene I'm older more mature and way stronger and then I quote part of my Oh Sweet Mandy live gig introduction "I've got her love and she's got mine"
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Go on and go, walk out the door Turn around now You're not welcome anymore You're the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye Thinkin' I'd crumble Did you think I'd lay down and die? No, not I, I will survive Long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive I've got my life to live, and all my love to give And I will survive I, I will survive Go on, go, walk out the door Turn around now You're not welcome anymore You're the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye Think I'd crumble? You think I'd lay down and die? No, not I, I will survive Long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive I've got my life to live And all my love to give and I will survive I, I, I will survive
- - As time goes by I know more and more Emily is the only one I want, it's be and her forever, fans may still want me and briar back together but I'm with Emily, briar broke my heart Emily fixed it, other girls I tried dating between the two broke my heart Emily fixed it. Me and Emily are gonna be there for life, they say that couples fall out that honeymoon period but me and Emily won't our love is too perfect, best friends and lovers. One day husband and wife for sure
With her I know I WILL SURVIVE
A/N: should have said this before but this is all one plot for this song Also fun fact Myles aunt Sarah Blackwood from Walk Off The Earth sung this very song with THE Gloria Gaynor in the Radio City Music Hall show on the Walk Off The Earth and Lindsey Stirling tour on 10th August 2024
