Sanai is 17 years old and was born in Baltimore Maryland and has a twin brother named Sincere. Her and her parents moved to Atlanta after her twin brother died from gun violence, for a fresh start away from the dangerous city. After losing her broth...
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8:26pm
I sat in the car looking out the window as me, my mom, and dad were in a Uber going to our new home in Atlanta from the airport.
We flew here and shipped our cars to our house days ago and they arrived yesterday.
I was currently wearing my black beat headphones listening to my Spotify playlist.
It's been a month since my brother passed, and I have been in the worst mental state. My parents tried putting me In grief therapy seeing the toll his death had on me, but I wasn't going for that.
I'm low key upset we moved here because now I can't stay in my brother room 24/8. But I'm also glad we moved because I been planning to move away when I got older but that happened sooner than I thought.
A few minutes later we pulled up at the house and this is my first time seeing it. We got out of the car getting our suitcases from the trunk.
As I walk to the front door I look at the outside. It was a brick light brown 3 story house with a drive way leading up to a gray 2 car garage door my parents cars inside of it and mines infront of it, the drive way turned into a walk way leading to the gray front door.
"Where is my room ma?" I walk into the fully furnished house.
"The room in the back as u make a left upstairs." She answered sitting her suitcase down.
"Ok goodnight love y'all" I say and hear them reply back as I walk upstairs towards my room and open the door.
I see a black bed frame with a mattress covered with pink sheets and comforter in the corner against the wall with chalkboard wallpaper, a black nightstand next to my bed, a full body mirror a few feet away from my bed, a white vanity a few feet away from the mirror, a white dresser with a 60 inch tv on top with white shelves above, and a door at the bottom of my bed next to my dresser leading to my bathroom.
I walk inside my bathroom and see a one sink counter top with extra counter space, a toilet next to the counter, and a bathtub with a shower and black curtains.
Next to the shower is a door leading to my empty decent sized walk in closet.
I walk back into my room filled with boxes and let out a grunt because I hate unpacking.
"I'm to tired for this shit, I'm taking a shower and laying my ass in bed tf..." I mug talking to myself.
I take my headphones from around my neck putting them on my dresser. I walk into my bathroom towards the box on the counter labeled as "hygiene/body care".
I take out the products I will need and turn on the shower, struggling on how to work it.
I walk back in my room taking off my clothes and jewelry, I wrap my hair up and put on my scarf and bonnet since I currently have a quick weave.
I walk in the bathroom turning on my playlist from my phone first song playing is NIGHTS LIKE THIS - The Kid LAROI. Getting in the shower I stand under the water to get wet. With my exfoliating glove I start lathering my body with Dr. Bronner's unscented body wash.
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I been out of the shower for a few minutes and it's about the be 11pm and I'm finishing up my skincare. I put away my products and take off my robe putting on my black silk pajama set.
I turn off the bathroom light and grab the remote getting in my bed. I sign into Disney turning on Liv and Maddie.
I go on Instagram to post a story of a picture I took earlier before getting in the shower, since I haven't posted on social media in a while.
@s.sanai now
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A few minutes has passed and I'm on my MacBook reading and replying to the comments on my most recent YouTube video I uploaded a few days before Sincere passed.
I went ghost on YouTube and social media since they were the last thing on my mind after losing my twin. I'm still not in the best mental state but I'm doing better than before.
I would barely eat, talk to people, I would stay in Sincere room all day, I stopped reading, drawing and making YouTube videos.
My parents weren't doing good either but life stops for no one so after Sincere's funeral they still had to get up every day and work, and I had still had to go to school since I'm in my senior year and it's very important.
My parents decided to cremate his body, family and everybody close to him got a necklace with his ashes in it. I also got a small vase with his ashes and my parent got the regular sized one.
I close my MacBook and put it on the other side of the bed. I put my phone on the charger and place it on the night stand.
I play with my necklace with Sincere ashes as I watch tv slowly falling asleep.
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First chapter! This was short and low key boring but I had to add a chapter of her moving.
It was 5am when I finished this lmao 😭 it took me 3 hours to finish this cs I was distracted by my music.
