it's my second year working at the bau.
i work as the liaison; i go to tell hotch we're about to start discussing the new case at the round table.
that's when i see her.
she has short raven hair with gorgeous brown eyes.
i felt this weird feeling come over me when i saw her.
having no idea what it meant, i pushed it down.
i later learn her name is emily.
it fits her.
emily and i become quick friends.
we go away on a case to New Orleans.
i met a guy, Will.
he's cute.
he seems interested in me.
i think i'm interested too.
only problem, he doesn't make my heart flutter the way emily does.
or the butterflies form in my stomach, the way they do when she looks at me.
no.
that can't be right.
i can't like girls.
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"you don't choose who you fall in love with."
is what emily told a woman; who happened to fall in love with a murderer.
when i hear her say those words, it was like a stab to my stomach and heart.
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my best friend has been shot.
we're waiting in the waiting room while she's in surgery.
emily sitting beside me.
she grabs my hand to comfort me.
i feel butterflies.
the butterflied i don't feel with will.
the butterflies i should feel with will.
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we're away on another case in Miami.
the unsub only targeting gay males.
Will is working with us again, he and i now in a relationship.
i like him.
he likes me.
but my heart doesn't flutter.
i break it off with him.
i can't do it anymore.
suddenly the thought appears in my head.
what if the unsub is targeting gay males because he is struggling with his own sexuality.
this can't be about me though.
i'm straight.
i always have been.
once the case is finished, i stare at Will wondering if i made the right decision.
emily appears beside me seeing who i'm staring at.
"you should go for him."
"what?" i replied.
not taking my eyes off him.
"you'd make a cute couple"
"you know what?"
