What died didn't stay dead

Chapter 6

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No, no this isn't happening. I don't believe it. This is a dream. I'm gonna wake up from this terrible nightmare and Gracie will be fine and Olivia will be happy. It's not real, this isn't happening. My hands shook. I didn't know what to do. I just stood there like a dead body. I thought I was dying. Like my body was shutting off. Not gracie. Not my baby. I loved Gracie and Livi more than myself. 

They were my babies and I couldn't protect any of them. I'm a horrible person, this is my fault. "Tay? You good" Olivia looks over at me giggling. "Yea" I choke out before sprinting out of the car. Tree was stepping off the plane coming to tell us to hurry up when I fell to the ground near the bush and threw up. I couldn't help it, I felt sick. Gracie was dead. She wasn't living. Olivia was gonna be hysterical. No, this isn't happening. "Oh my god taylor" tree ran

over to me, kneeling down rubbing my back trying to help me. "T-ree" I sob into her arms. Confused, she hugs me tightly back trying to comfort me. "Tay what's going on, is it Oli?" tree had known all about Livi and her parents ever since Livi was in hospital. I shake my head and continue to sob hysterically into her shoulder. Olivia who was confused as hell opens the car door and comes running over to us. 

"Oh my god tay are you ok?" I shake my head at tree telling her I don't want Olivia to see me. She nods and I continue to cry. I didn't want to tell her yet. Not when I couldn't process it fully. But I had to tell her really soon. "Give us a minute honey, go hop in the jet ok" tree calms her down as she hesitantly walks back. Once I saw that she was inside I turned back to tree. My tears did not stop but I knew I had to tell her or I'd pass out. "She's gone" I coughed on the ground. "She's gone, she's gone and it's my fault" I cried on the ground tree trying to makeout my words. "Who babe?" she asked carefully. "Gracie" I sobbed , going back into her arms. "Oh my god" she whispered, rubbing my back. 

"Taylor I'm so sorry" she hugged me close. "It's not real," I whispered, holding on to tree for dear life. "Tay, I'm so sorry but she is gone, i know how much she meant to you" tree told me getting on the phone with the hospital. She had some tears in her eyes when she came back to sit with me. We were still outside watching the media blow up with the news about gracie. The hospital had been idiots and 'leaked' it, so tree was helping them keep it under wraps for the most part. Daniel and lisa had been sentenced to 15 years in prison for sexual assault and child abuse so they were out of the picture so the only blood family Olivia had left was gracie. I knew I had to tell Olivia, it was her sister. I just hoped she hadn't found out from the media yet. 

"Oh my god taylor are you ok?" Olivia came running over to me, engulfing me in a hug once we made it onto the plane. Tree had helped me walk to the jet and not look like I've been sobbing for the past 10 minutes. "Yea livi i'm ok" that's a lie, i would rather be dead. But I knew I had to be strong for olivia. Gracie was her life, her favourite person. God, I couldn't believe this was happening. "Good, I was getting worried" she smiles at me, getting water out of the "'So when's Gracie getting here" she asked casually.

 It broke my heart. It was like someone was shattering my heart a million little times. I couldn't do this. "Actually livi can i talk to you about something" i motioned for tree to sit next to me for support for livi and she came and sat down next to me while olivia came and sat across. "Yea? Whats going on?" she asked innocently as if her world wasn't about to come crumbling down in a matter of seconds. "So when's Gracie getting here" she asked again, this time a little insistently. I looked at the tree and took a deep breath. 

"So Gracie isn't going to be coming with us back to LA" I told her carefully. "Oh" her face drops. "Is she staying here instead?" she questions. "Um, not quite sweet girl," I told her slowly. "On the way here, Gracie got into a car accident" I tell her and she slightly freezes. "But she's ok right?" She looks at me anxiously. "No babe, um she passed an hour ago, she's gone" I told her and held her hands. She says nothing for a minute, her body still as a ghost. It honestly scared me. I turned to the tree with tears in my eyes. 

I turn back to Olivia and before I could say something to her she runs over to the tiny jet bathroom and throws up. I run after her and pull her hair back to help her. She turns around sobbing uncontrollably and I pull her into my arms and hold her close. Tears stream down my face as I sit us against the wall to get more comfortable. "No," she sobs. "It's not real," she cries and tightens her arms around me. "I know baby, I'm sorry I'm so sorry" I cry and I pull her closer. A couple minutes later the tree comes in with a bottle of water.

 "Tay, do you still wanna go to LA?" she asked me. "Yea lets go" I slowly get up resting the now sleeping girl on my chest. I carry her down the tiny hallway and get her somewhat comfortable on the seat. I buckle myself next to her and grab a blanket to keep us warm. Tree goes to update the pilot and the crew starts to get ready. Normally I would say thanks and talk to the crew for a bit but now I can't manage even a smile. It's like my life is crumbling.

 Gracie is gone, not alive. The most loving caring girl who only ever wanted what was best for her sister is gone. I was going to get custody of olivia. I know it. I would give my life for her. "Ok taylor you just relax ok? I'll keep everything under control. I'm assuming you wanna put something out but I think we should let it die down so I'm gonna try and get some of the big articles out and keep everything managed." she told me to open her laptop, ipad and work phone.

 "Ok thank you tree i love you" i turn to her. About 20 minutes after we take off we get told we can move around now. I unbuckle Olivia and take her to the bedroom at the back. "Mmh?" Olivia stirs slowly as I tuck her in the blanket. ""tay? She lifts her head up. "Yea baby?" I lay next to her. "I miss her" she looks at me with tears. "Oh babe, I know.. Commre "I pulled her in, her neck in my chest and her legs around my waist. I pull her close listening to her little sobs and her body rocking slowly. My heart breaks for her so much.

Olivia's pov:

I woke up in the plane bedroom next to taylor. She's holding me close even though she's sleeping. I rub my puffy sore eyes and get out of bed. "Hey babe" tree looks up at me as I walk down the little hallway. "Hi" I sat next to her and pulled my arms to wrap around my legs. "How are you feeling?" tree asks, abandoning her work and turning to me. I look at her, my lip trembling and shaking my head. "ok it's ok" she soothes me before i start crying.

 "Hey guys" I look over at Taylor who is standing there with slightly puffy eyes and crouches down as I tuck my head into her shoulder and start sobbing again. I can't help it, I know I probably look like an idiot but I don't care. Gracies gone, i think i'm in denial because i don't believe it. It's not true. "Tay, I miss her s-so much" I cough. "I know baby me too" she sounds like she's on the verge of tears that she won't dare to let fall in front of me. 

 A couple minutes later I collected myself and extracted myself from taylors arms. "Are you guys hungry? I can get the chef to make something?" tree asks. "Um yea thanks tree, i'll have an egg" taylor told her. "What about you bee?" she asks me while holding my hand. "Im ok" I shake my head. I'm the last thing from hunger. I feel sick.

 "Well you haven't eaten anything in over 16 hours so how about we get some food for you huh?" She gently forces me. I'm too tired to fight with her so I nod my head and she orders me a fruit platter and cereal. I lay my head back and try to fight off sleep and another headache but it overtakes me and I doze of quietly.