пошел на хуй (Fuck you)

Chapter 8

Matronas POV

God, my head hurts and my back too. What happen last night I thought to my self. Not needing to open my eyes, the light already seems too bright. I try to sit up but imminently fell back, my head feeling dizzy.

"You're awake" a voice said.

I groan.

"Wha-" I didn't finish that question, finally getting my eyes to open I see the deputy sitting at my side. Just now I realize that I didn't wear my dress form last night, I was naked. Why was I naked. I took the blanked and pulled it up to my face.

"Why in god's name am I naked." I ask nervous.

"You don't remember ?" He asked.

"No, what should I remember, we didn't do anything right because if we did," I say now angry.

"Calm down, nothing happened, I'm not a pig. I changed you after you fell asleep I had a bad feeling with you sleeping in that dress, I hope that's okay, I didn't touch anything other than your dress." He explained.

I breathe out.

"Thank you, I'm really sorry I told you I could hold my liquor, and then I let myself go like this." I say with a laugh.

"At least nothing happened other than you kissed me." He said standing up.

"Ha ya, wait WHAT ! I did WHAT" I say surprised

"You kissed my last night and told me to help take your mind off things" He explained.

"OH GOD" I say, putting my face into my hands.

"That- I'm so sorry, God, there is a reason to never drink again." I say completely embarrassed and sorry.

"It okay-"

"No, it's not, I pushed my self on you without your consent." I explain.

"You were drunk." He said

"That's not an excuse god, why are you still talking with my like nothing happened, I asked you to fuck me, and you just stand there like It's nothing."

"Because it was nothing we didn't do anything, you were drunk and that's it" He reassured me.

I'm still speechless. I stand up to look for some clothes to put on, the blanked still wrapped around me.

"How are you feeling" He asked, breaking the silence.

"Like somebody smashed my head into a wall, and I can't remember anything after seeing the countess and that man." I say,

that would do, I think to my self, and taking the clothes to the bathroom.

After changing, I put the blanked back on the bed. Now seeing Gleb sitting on the couch.

"So, what are we going to do now, will we wait till next week for the ballet to go to Anya or do you still want to look for her like this ?" I ask.

"I'm going to look around, try to find that man that we saw yesterday, But to be sure we will wait till after the ballet to approach her I need to confirm that she is … Anastasia." he says.

"But we are still going to the ballet to see if it is really Anya, right ?" I ask.

"I'm going, I don't know if you can afford it. " He said.

"Excuse me, I can afford it, I didn't work 3 jobs for nothing." I say.

"Three? I know you told me you worked multiple but three, why so many it was just you and Anya, and she worked too" He said surprised.

"No it wasn't I live with another family, The Komarov family, It's a big family of 6, and they need the help" I explain with a smile on my face as I remember the big family. I didn't tell him about the kitchen, since I'm sure It's not very legal

"Why ?" He asked.

"Well for one the only one that could work is a mother of three, a three-year-old, a 9-year-old and a 13-year-old, the father died just a few months after the youngest got born, and the other two are too old to work." I explain.

"And why are you helping them ?" He asked interested.

"Well I live with them, it's a trade of service, I can live in the small house to own, and they can get food of the money I earn. " I explain.

"Oh wow" he said in surprised.

"It is not easy to survive alone, not in Leningrad" I say silently. We sat in silence.

The following week was, interesting. I and Gleb were on search for the man, but never really finding him. We didn't really talk with one another. But he seemed to fight with himself most of the time. And the day came, the ballet. To be honest I'm very nervous not only because I can see Anya again, if she is here, but also it's the first time I will see a ballet. It's exciting I put on the dress of my mother. I knew I needed it when I packed it, I didn't know how I would need it, but I just needed it. And now it came in handy. It was a light blue and white It fell softly, it was just beautiful. Arriving at the theater was like stepping into a different world. The building was big and hold up by, pillars and I felt like I didn't belong here. The last time I was in such a great place was in the palace on that night. I looked around to see if I could spot Anya but no where, after a while I found Gleb, He looked just like the time at the train station, completely in his mind.

"Deputy ?" I asked, feeling concerned. He startled, looking at me with widened eyes. It took him a few seconds to relax and see that it was me.

"Everything okay ?" I ask.

" Yes, let's go"  he asks and giving me his arm.

" I didn't pay yet" I say, looking confused.

" Yes you did, I did for you" he said.

I looked at him speechless.

"You didn't have to" I say, even more surprised. But I let it go and took his arm, and we went to our seats he bought some high ones so we had a perfect look on the stage. The ballet didn't even start yet, and I was already mesmerized. Looking around on the other end of the stage sat a man, the man we had seen in the Neva club. And two more people came to sit next to him, a young man and a woman.

Anya