Be my Forever

Chapter 4❤

Hey sorry it's been a long time haha. But I started highschool so I was settling in and its been tough trying to get used to getting up at 5:30 in the morning. But I've gotten better, I miss writing these and I've been stuck on what to write this chapter but I've got a pretty good idea now so I hope u like it!!
Here's chapter 4⤵

Killian's POV

I wake up to a beautiful day and it definitely helps
my mood, but I'm still depressed from the
previous night. I feel the need to talk to her but I can't tell her the truth because it will ruin everything. It boggles my mind that exactly when I was about to finally ask her... It all gets ruined. What did I do to deserve this?

I jump out of bed, strip of my clothes and throw myself into the shower. It's a quick one... Nothing important today, so I'm out in 5 minutes. I put on some jeans and my favorite black V-neck shirt. I've worn it countless times and now there's a little hole under my left armpit.

Walking down stairs probably isn't a great idea when you're still tired, but I made it and I start the coffee and grab a bagel and cream cheese from the fridge.

I'm going to make today a great day. I'm going to talk to Emma and get things cleared up with her, maybe take her on another date that won't (hopefully) be screwed up by the self conscious weather. I'm constantly paranoid about what she thinks... I love her too much to lose her so tonight had to be perfect. Something unimaginable and something she will love. I head over to her apartment and knock on the door. It's a slight knock... Not something too powerful but a knock that shows forcefulness with sensitivity.

She doesn't answer so I wait a few seconds. Nobody comes to the door so I just leave and head home. It breaks my heart not knowing if she's mad at me or not. I mean it's not really my fault, I didn't make it rain. It's not like I said oh! Hey God! Make it rain so there will be awkwardness between me and my future wife! No. I didn't. I unlock the door and head to my room realizing I forgot my phone on my dresser this morning. I look at it and see I have a missed call from Emma.

I press to listen to the voicemail and my heart drops. I suddenly can't breath and I feel like I'm falling. Like something is pushing me and I can't push against it. Is this what true love feels like. Is this why I can't concentrate when I see her. Hearing her voice from the voicemail makes me miss her more and I can't handle it. I call her back immediately...

She doesn't answer so I leave her a voicemail as well. "Hey Emma, love, I'm sorry about last night and I would like to talk to you and hopefully tonight won't get ruined by the weather. Meet me at the cabin in the forest by the lake. I hope you can make it! I love you. Don't ever forget that. Have a good day wherever you are." I hope this will do. It will have to work. She'll come right? I hope so... I don't know now why she wouldn't. Last night was awkward but its over now and we need to move on. Except what I was gonna do isn't part of moving on. I'm going to ask her to marry me tonight. And it WON'T get ruined this time.