BBC Ghosts oneshot book

I Don't Wanna Love The Way I Loved Before

Thomas discovered Sinead o' Connor and the lyrics to 'take me to church' resonate with him. This is not an x reader thing but just a oneshot for my love-sick puppy Thomas.
Lyrics in italics
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Thomas had died for Isabelle, or at least that's what he thinks. He had died for the person he had longed to be with.

In death, his ways of love did not stop. At first, he still loved Isabelle and grew a hatred towards Francis (I think that's his cousins name, correct me if I'm wrong) for stealing his true love, but after Francis died, he soon got over it because a couple years later, he had found someone else to love.

A young man about the age of 22 was helping out in the kitchen. His name was Arthur. Anytime he was in the kitchen, Thomas would be shadowing. Thomas loved his strong arms and toned legs, he was becoming rather infatuated. However, Arthur, at the age of 27, passed due to pneumonia. Unfortunately for Thomas, he passed in the comfort of his home with his wife and child at his side.

This situation repeated a few more times before Alison inherited his house, his most recent crush was on Heather Button's sister, Effie. She moved out of button house to pursue her dream of Hollywood fame.

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Thomas was doing his usual meander of the house when he heard Alison playing a song he had never heard before. He listened curiously to the lyrics and they were some of the most raw and passionate he had ever heard.

'I don't wanna love the way I loved before
I don't wanna love that way no more
What've I been writin' love songs for?
I don't wanna write 'em anymore
I don't wanna sing from where I sang before
I don't wanna sing that way no more
What've I've been singin' love songs for?
I don't wanna sing 'em anymore'

It clicked.

Everything he had experienced in his life and death finally made sense. He had thought he was experiencing love, when in fact, it was quite the opposite.

All these years of having feeling for people who couldn't reciprocate them and he finally felt free of everything.

He ran to Alison was an excitement he hadn't experienced in a while.

'Alison, I'm so sorry for tormenting you with my word of love. I think I have a fixation for love itself rather than actually experiencing true, passionate feelings,'

Alison look stunned. Words that she never thought could be possible being said by Thomas' mouth were spilling out like a fountain.

Thomas looked around. He felt different, lighter even. Maybe it was the weight of his shoulders?

Second went by and Thomas saw blinding lights appear from above him and slowing he was gracefully floating to the next realm of existence.

His last thought was... 'finally,'

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Guys I'm sorry but not really tho. I'm in the mood for some angst so Thomas was the victim today. There might be some more songfics coming soonish as that's all that's inspiring me (does this even classify as a songfic as it only has one verse?) But anyway, I'm trying to expand my writing and to get better at writing different characters actually in character.

Hope this was alright, sorry for the lack of /reader