Never Grow up - Taylor Swifts daughter

4

"I rejected Harvard" Samuel tells me walking into the living room where I hold our two month old

"Samuel you can't... you can't do that"

"I already did, I can't go, I can't leave you"

"Samuel you can't just do that for me, that was your dream school, you have to call them back!"

"It's not just because of you Taylor, we have a daughter who needs me and I'm not just going to leave her! I also turned down LSU"

"Samu, no... why would you do that? You have to go to school, you have to get your degree, how else are you-"

"I have it all planned out, don't worry about that-"

"What about football?"

"I'm quitting, I can't do it anymore, Kassie needs me"

"Samuel-"

"It's fine Taylor, I need to be with you guys and-"

"I want to break up" I blurt out

"What?"

"I want to break up"

"Tay, babe no, what? Why?"

"Because you can't ruin your life like this!"

"I'm not ruining my life, you two are my priority!"

"This isn't how things were supposed to go Samuel, you wanted to go to Harvard!" I yell, startling our baby in my arms as she cries "I'm so sorry baby" I say to Kassie as she inconsolably cries in my arms, I let a few tears fall on her, i hadn't Even noticed myself crying too

I walk away from the living room and into Kassies nursery, sitting on the rocking chair as I try to calm my daughter down

Samuel and I had never fought, only tiny little arguments but now I'd made my daughter cry from my yelling

It takes Kas a while to calm down and I breast feed her before she falls asleep, I hold my daughter in my arms, too scared to face Samuel again, but I know I can't hide in here forever so I place my baby in her crib and go back to our living room

"Can we talk?"

"Preferably not cry and startle Kas?" He asks to which I nod

"I'm sorry, but I can't do that to you, you deserve to follow your dreams, I know you and I know-"

"tay, i dont care about that! I haven't cared about that since we found out we were having Kas, we're both equally responsible for her, and I can't do anything I have planned because I know you're not giving up on your dream and that would just make me a terrible parent, someone has to look out for Kas"

"I'm doing that!" I cry

"Tay-"

"I'm going to take care of her"

"Tay I know you will but if I move away, it'll be harder on you, this way"

"I'm going to my parents" I whisper, walking to the nursery to grab Kassie and enough stuff for a few days

"Tay, this is our home, I love you, and I-, please tell me you love me, say it back Tay"

I did love him, but to be honest, I had been having a hard time since Kas was born, I knew deep down what he meant, he couldn't leave us, we were his priority, but on the other hand it hurt to see his dreams being crushed because of us, so i didn't say it back

"Tay, don't leave please" Samuel says shedding tears, I don't say anything making him snatch the diaper bag from me "if you don't want to be near me, I'll go, but you stay here in the comfort of our home, let our daughter sleep in her crib" he cries, making me nod