K-pop oneshots

Binwoo (Astro)

Moon Bin

26 years old, a member of k-pop group Astro. An angel in disguise.

Cha Eunwoo/Lee Dong Min

27 years old, a member of Astro alongside Moonbin. Moonbin's life support.

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What if multiple times Eunwoo managed to stop Moonbin from committing but one time he couldn't?

"Moonbin, please let go of the knife. Please..." He pleaded in hopes of stopping his loved one from ending his own life. "I can't let go, I have to end my pathetic life."

"No, you don't. Listen to me Moonbin, your life is yours only and it's just as precious as anyone else's. It might not be precious to you but it's everything to me... you're everything to me. So please let go of the knife."

Hearing those words make Moonbin feel loved, he let go of the knife and went towards Eunwoo. Eunwoo embraced him tightly, letting him borrow his shoulder while he cried. (I loved watching A Shoulder to Cry on.)

Eunwoo placed a kiss on his head and patted his back to calm him down, worrying about the other all the time. The stress of being an idol got to everyone in the group but it affected Moonbin the most. And seeing the horrible effect on him made Eunwoo want to keep him in his embrace, and never let him go.

That was one of the first times Eunwoo found him with a weapon in his hand, trying to cut himself. After the first time he kept an extra close eye on him, noticing every little thing that triggered his depression and calming him down every single time.

Moonbin's stress and depression was kept as a secret from the other members as he didn't wanna worry anyone else. He was already so glad to have Eunwoo with him, helping him every step of the way.

Whenever he had dark thoughts, his boyfriend was always there to bring him back no more what. But the thought of Eunwoo always worrying about him made him even more worried and sad. He didn't want someone as good as him to waste his time on him. (Oh Moonbin, it was never a waste of time.)

The second time was when they had a concert and Moonbin made a mistake. He felt like such a burden and to punish himself he cut himself.

That was until Eunwoo came into his room to check up on him and saw his bloodied wrist. He immediately took the blade out of his hand, throwing it aside and holding his wrist, using his shirt to apply pressure and stop the bleeding.

"Why would you do that? Why?" He said all while his heart was suffering. "It was a punishment, I made a mistake and messed up everything. I'm a burden."

"It's okay, everyone makes mistakes. I made at least three mistakes today. Bin-ah....you have to stop blaming yourself, if you want to blame someone blame me. If you want to punish someone, punish me just don't hurt yourself. And never think that you're a burden."

"What did I do to deserve you?"

"Nothing, I'm the one who doesn't deserve you. Come on, let's get you fixed up." He helped the other get up and let him fully depend on him.

After that incident Moonbin never tried to hurt himself. They told the members everything and slowly he managed to get back on track with the help of his wonderful members and Eunwoo.

But a sick Eunwoo sent him back to the deep and dark hole. He wanted to be by his side like he always was but seeing him sick made him feel a certain way. And even with his best efforts he couldn't help him any more than he could himself.

Due to his serious sickness, Eunwoo had to go on hiatus and the members including Moonbin were too busy to properly care for him.

One day when he went to check up Eunwoo, he suddenly started crying. His cries woke the sleeping Eunwoo up. "Bin-ah? What's wrong?" Hearing the other's voice, he wiped his tears and pretended to smile. "Nothing hyung. Just rest, you need it."

At the moment he did need rest so he didn't question anything but still held onto Moonbin's hand tightly, almost as though he was scared if he didn't do so then the other would disappear. (If only he knew.)

Moonbin wanted to punish himself again but this time he stopped thinking of Eunwoo. "For you hyung, I'll try not to blame myself this time."

Slowly Eunwoo got better and Moonbin got better along with him, his real smile showing again. His dark circles were also gone, he started eating a normal amount again. Everything seemed to be getting better. But good things only last for so long...

Multiple hate comments made all of Moonbin's hard work and happiness crumble. He couldn't stop reading them even though Eunwoo told him to stop and ignore the haters. It didn't work as the hate had already invaded his mind, poisoning him from the inside.

He stopped eating altogether, saying he would eat later. And worked himself to the bone, fainting multiple times to which once again Eunwoo came to his rescue.

"I'm gonna take a bath hyung." He said after a day of practice and Moonbin was frustrated he couldn't do anything right. He locked the door, with Eunwoo standing outside the door.

A few minutes had passed and it was awfully quiet inside the bathroom. He called out to Moonbin but no answer came. He panicked and woke up the other members. With their help he managed to open the door.

The sight he saw next was one he could never forget. Tears fell out involuntarily as he approached closer to the lifeless body lying wet in the tub. He took out Moonbin's body and hugged him tight, not wanting to let go.

"Bin-ah...why didn't you come to me? Why did you do this? What about me, us? What about everyone else?" The pain in his voice could be heard for miles.

People around the world mourned Moonbin's death. Tears were shed, words were said. At the memorial site, Eunwoo left a letter with the words,"Bin, I miss you tonight, you mean guy. I came with Sanha while on a stroll. Why do I miss and regret all the things that we did together that I took for granted, even the very little things?... I hope you are hundreds of times happier where you are. Don't worry about what you left behind because I'll take responsibility and take care of them. You did so well. I love you, and I am sorry my friend."

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I wish I had known this angel before he passed away. Lately I've been seeing past clips of him everywhere and I miss him. He was too good for this world, I even used Eunwoo's actual words for the letter cause the letter is perfect the way it is. Rest in peace Moonbin.